- Date posted
- 1y
Can't tell if moral ocd or genuine mistake ..
Having moral scrupulousity makes it difficult to tell when I've made an actual mistake or not and I feel like it clouds my thinking. Yesterday while playing a game (on the adult server) I was messing around with some friends and this person came up as the character who's in-story the wife of the character I was playing. anyway so I was making some in-character jokes abt them being my wife or whatever. and then I remembered that person was a minor. (They were a different character last time so I didn't immediately remember, i suspected though). Anyway I'm not sure if that was a creepy thing to do or not, and I felt awkward because I didn't want to just do a 180 and be an asshole and say stuff like "get away from me" or whatever. I dont know how old they are, i just know theyre a minor because they asked for my private account and i asked if they were an adult and they said no. So I just went along with it and then distanced myself later. But I'm afraid when stuff like this happens I'm doing something bad/I know I shouldn't be doing. I've had similar situations like this before and I dont want to stop playing the game since I have a lot of friends on here but I worry I'm doing bad things anytime there's a minor in the vicinity and people are gonna find out I'm being 'innapropriate' with them. I also feel like I need to confess to my friends but I'm resisting that compulsion. I just feel like a liar and like I did something really bad and it's been bothering me since it happened. Anyways, OCD doesn't rest for the holidays, but happy holidays to anyone celebrating and to anyone not, just happy weekend.