My mind is worrying about two different things

I have religious OCD as well as other themes one thing that has been bothering me is woth my intrusive thoughts I have them about people I love my mind will blurt thoughts put like God can (take) someone I love and other things worded different like this and it freaks me out and the only way I can calm down is I have to say out loud I'll never mean those thoughts or i rebuke those thoughts and I am terrified that if I don't say that i don't mean those thoughts that God will make those thoughts come true and take someone I love and if i dont say it out loud that i dont mean those thought that god will beleive it when my mind says he can take someone i love and so since I'm scared I have those all day every day so I'm constantly saying I don't mean the thoughts just so God knows i don't mean them and also I try to tell myself God will know they ain't true if I don't say outloud that i don't mean them but then my mind is lime well of you don't say it out loud then what if you really do mean the thoughts and "you really do mean the thoughts so say outloud that you don't so God won't make the thoughts come true" and it's so terrifying i literally pray every night and ask God to never make my thoughts come true but I'm so scared he will still believe my thoughts one day and make them come true and or punish me for anything really and make the thoughts come true so what I'm asking is does anyone know if God would ever take someone you love if you mind asked and said for him to because my mind blurts those thoughts like that and and I try keeping my mind from finishing those thoughts but they keeps happening and I get scared also that I'll truly mean it when I think for him to take someone i love and then get scared he will from me truly meaning it when my mind thinks it like it's got me freaking out and has been going on for few years now that same thing over and over i just woukd love to know for sure God won't ever take anyone because my mind said to even if my mind meant it I just want to know meaning it or not would like to know God would never take anyone for my mind saying to or wanting him to And the way I woreded that I don't want him to but my mind is like what if one day you do want him to i know that's OCD but I just wanted to clarify that God wouldn't take someone from you if you said to him he could wether your truly meant it or not that God wouldn't do that I just need help on this and no one with OCD doesn't understand

Puffpuff

Date posted: 1y

i have these same thoughts all the time... like "well what if-(this happened)" and its a horrible thought of something i would never want to happen. then i get a bad gut feeling that its gonna for sure happen if i dont think (louder than that first thought) or say outloud "i do not claim this" or knock on wood or something along those lines.. and other times, ill set something in my head (kinda like a horrible game) like say my mind says to me, "if u dont get to the top of the stairs by the time ur dog walks up to the bottom of the stairs, something specific and bad will happen. like my dog will die or whatever it may be.. so i run up the stairs and complete the mission or i panic.. ive never expressed these thoughts or feelings to anyone before cuz i kinda thought i was alone and crazy.. but they are for the most part unstopable.. do i need medicated?..

Kt1718

Date posted: 1y

Same it's so horrible and what's makes it worse is when you're caught and people think you're crazy then you have to explain it's all so stupid

Roman.Ariel

Date posted: 1y

totally feel you on this. luckily, God as seen OCD before. he knows what it looks like, he knows it’s not of him. he’s here for you, wanting to heal the root issues in your heart which cause it. check out Mark deJesus on youtube!

Kt1718

Date posted: 1y

Thank you

Anonymoususe...

Date posted: 19w

Is it possible for religious ocd to do this?

This is sort of a sub part of the religious OCD, but I have Meta OCD as well. My main fear is ocd driving me to do a horrible prayer. Unfortunately, one thing my mind does is prays for things I want constantly to prove that I can choose what I pray for. Some of these things include either my ocd to go away, people to be safe, or to die by being killed by a an animal or something when I’m running on the trial. The issue is with the being killed thing. I have prayed for all sorts of things I know are not going to happen. Unfortunately, one of them was almost world war 3. I’m not usually that kind of person. I read someone say they basically prayed for disaster every day on Reddit and people didn’t completely destroy them over it, so I thought “well I could pray for world war 3.” The issue is, if I were my normal calm self, I wouldn’t do that. All I would be thinking about is how I would die if it happened. I’m not sure if testing the prayers are somehow warping my actual values or if that’s an excuse I’m making for myself. When I’m running on the trail, I really wouldn’t want to be killed by an animal either, but I guess I mean it, cause I want to die. But I know it’s not going to happen. So I’m not sure if this is an ocd issue or not

Anonymous

Date posted: 18w

Religious OCD

Hey everyone, I need help. I woke up just now with the worst thoughts ever. Thoughts that GOD leaving me, thoughts that I like the bad guy, and thoughts that are worse than anything that I have ever thought of before. I realize that I am asking for reassurance, but I am so scared that I mean these thoughts and I just want GOD to keep me and my family safe and know that I don’t mean these thoughts… please help

jesus.is.fre...

Date posted: 7w

Religious OCD Christian

Please help anyone else here with Religious ocd and is a Christian? My brain is going hay-wire and want to know I'm not alone... what do your thoughts say and how do you overcome compulsions? Im going through a rough moment and feel sick with anxiety and stiff. I want to obey God but my thoughts won't stop. I surrender to the Lord and then I have peace with the compulsions and they go away but the thoughts are the scary part please - is this spiritual or is it mental? Or is it both? Would love to hear a Christians opinion on this... because my thoughts latch on and won't dissappear but I know that the Bible commands us to take control of our thoughts and to renew our minds...yet God has grace for this and mercy for our every need... I know God is in control (completely) and my mind creates a lot of the issues for me without any spiritual stuff (it's a very powerful thing) but it's still scary. Lord help me, I surrender myself to you Jesus, counsel my soul and help me.

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