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Hocd
Anyone feel like they wake up one day and don’t feel the same anymore?
Anyone feel like they wake up one day and don’t feel the same anymore?
Going from "incredibly horny all the time for women" to "not really feeling interested." It didn't happen all at one time, but it was scary to feel like my interest in women was fading away.
@ConsciousPilot You going through it to?
Sometimes, but that happens to most people. Emotions are fleeting.
@Nica That not what I mean but ok what I mean is that I wake up one day and feel like I don’t have feeling for woman
@JohnKit More like a gradual erosion over a few weeks/months. That's one of the hardest parts about this theme.
@ConsciousPilot What is gradual erosion
@JohnKit Then you need to be more specific. We can’t read minds.
@Nica Hi Nica - i think I understand what he means but your insight would be great. I think he/she is asking can you just wake up one day and feel like you’ve lost feelings for someone. Or lost feelings for the sex you’ve been interested in your life before. I can certainly relate. I woke up one day and was convinced I didn’t feel enough for my then gf. That lead to a complete loss of libido overnight, and consequently to SOOCD.
Since 1993. I didn't know what it was until a few years ago.
@ConsciousPilot Oooh man that a long time you good? I’m straight to and sometime I’m dealing with this hocd is hard
It sucks, but I'm hopeful this treatment will help. Married for 22 years with 2 great kids.
@ConsciousPilot Yo when did you start having hocd did you have thought about same sex in sexual way? And did it stop after a while?
No it didn't start as anything sexual at all. It was just a thought, but it felt like an overwhelming "truth" that I hadn't realized until that moment. Over several months it started to become really uncomfortable to look at guys -- and then the groinal responses started. I completely flipped out.
I can also suggest very strongly to avoid porn. I'm not the least bit prudish, but I found out later that it can be VERY detrimental to recovery.
@ConsciousPilot Bro I go on porn like almost everyday and it hard cause I’m say it I’m addicted to it I admit it cause I got into it when i was young
I'm just becoming aware of my porn addiction -- after 30 years lol! Last week I deleted all my porn bookmarks and am staying away from it. The stuff I got into was definitely getting worse and worse over time. Plus, it was 100% feeding my HOCD.
@ConsciousPilot After 30 dam I’m only 17 and it hard any tip?
I've got an addictive personality, so part of it is knowing how you're wired. But honestly, when I realized it was contributing to my symptoms it just became something I had to do. You can definitely do it!! See if you can do 24 hours, then 48. It will get easier.
@ConsciousPilot After work I might go watch it
Like I can’t think straight. This is making me doubt everything I’ve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I don’t. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go “oh so you like it you must be gay” or the other one where I’m not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that I’ve had my whole life and my mind goes “see now you’re not into them you’re gay” like it’s so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or “a thing of the past”. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and it’s so weird. Today I’ve spent my whole day thinking about it like I’ve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just won’t let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
anyone else have a good evening/ day then fall back down hurrendously the next day? Honestly yesterday I felt great! Like I knew what I like (opposite gender) and these ‘false attractions’ are just false alarms caused by OCD… like I knew these thoughts and feeling are OCD. Today I question it all over again. Are these false attractions real? Why has my loss of opposite attraction feel like it won’t return? Though yesterday I got snippets.
For me it was a weird intrusive thought and after that I slowly started developing anxiety and I felt a weird thing like I was losing my attraction to girls. Then I woke up one day in complete panic cuz it felt like I had lost feelings for girls suddenly and I started searching online how to know if you’re gay if sexuality changes suddenly and I took some gay tests or sexuality tests online. Chat gpt was a big thing back then too. That was before therapy and before I knew what ocd is.Can anyone relate?
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