So basically, I'm afraid of having schizophrenia or becoming possessed (I'm religious). And I have been noticing I'm really paranoid lately and almost believing delusions or what ifs in my mind. Obviously I know they are crazy, but my mind keeps doubting it. That's what scares me the most if I listen to it one day and go crazy.
Going through that now, the most important thing you can do is don’t stop living your life. I’ve had it before and it comes and goes, so there’s no point in focusing on that. Focus on what will help you and you’ll be fine :)
Thank you!! It's really difficult to not focus on that. Does what ifs are scary and feel so real. But thanks man I appreciate it.
Good luck to you! You got this!
They call this the “doubting disease “ for a reason. It makes you doubt who you are and question reality. Did I do this? Turn off that? Was that really a bump in the road or a person? What if I act on that crazy thought? Learning to not take our thoughts at face value is hard when they come with anxiety or that creepy feeling. Just remember OCD comes with intrusive thoughts that are upsetting, unwanted and go against our values otherwise they would not upset us. Hang in there you can learn OCDs tricks and see through them.
Just scared of telling these things to my new psychiatrist cause I am aware they are crazy but it's like I almost believe them but don't? Idk if that makes sense.
Thank you thought.
@Snakeu33 It does.
That’s OCD. The obsessions( fears) are called themes. I’ve had OCD since I was a child and grew up very religious and those were my very first themes that I was aware of. OCD is very repetitive. It’s fascinating to see how many ppl have the same irrational fears as you do. Just get into some therapy, practice disregarding/ ignoring the thoughts and do not engage with the themes. The more you feed it the more it will grow. You need to show your brain that those are nothing to be afraid of then anxiety will subside.
@Mimi33 * those thoughts are nothing to be afraid of then the anxiety will subside.
Thanks! I'm just scared of saying these "delusions" almost to a therapist because they scare me and I don't want them to see me like I'm psychotic.
@Mimi33 Gotcha I will try my best. Thanks for your help. It's hard but I will try.
@Snakeu33 Yes it is! OCD is a chronic condition. It can get really scary. I have lost weight because of it in the pass from feeling sick/ anxious. The symptoms can make you feel like you’re going into psychosis (I’ve thought this myself and almost called the psychiatric ward on the job one time). Seeing a therapist was a life changer for me.
@Mimi33 Hey, how much would you say you have felt better? With the religious ocd? I'm having a really bad day today, there a lot of doubts that shouldn't be doubts and I don't mean any of them. I'm gonna see a psychiatrist Monday. Do you have any tips?
@Mimi33 Also lots of panic attacks and anxiety.
@Snakeu33 Watch Ali Greymond’s youtube channel. She’ll give you lots of tips in her videos and you can replay them as much as you want.
I keep randomly getting scary evil/ demonic images or thoughts in my head. I can’t specifically describe how or what they are but I just feel scared & unsettled I feel like I’m possessed or that a devil is controlling my mind or something! I’m catholic I haven’t really been that religious but I’ve been so scared that I started praying to feel better and I feel like I need to pray to make whatever this is go away. I never believed in possession I’m more of a scientific based person however I’ve reached the point where my beliefs aren’t firm anymore I feel scared I don’t know what to believe it’s like I’m slowly believing my mind is being controlled I’m scared :( is something severely wrong with me? Is possession / devils real? Do I have a severe mental illness am I going crazy / developing psychosis or becoming delusional?? :(
okay pretty sure i’m developing this now as it’s been a background obsession for a while. my brain keeps thinking of demons and a white witch coming to get me and i was lying alone in the dark and i keep seeing this white shadowy thing or if i see a glare in some glass or something my brain just says “the white witch is coming for you” and then i get paranoid about it because i feel like it’s something that somebody hallucinating/ delusional would think. and i keep thinking about really scary paranormal stuff which is so scary and then i’m wondering why am i so paranoid and scared about this because i don’t think it’s real but then i get scared saying that thinking it will get mad at me if i say it’s not real, and then i think it’s probably schizophrenia for me to believe this but then i get worried that it’s not and apparently if u pay attention to this scary stuff it comes for you and now i’m scared af. i hate that i used the word “it” aswell cos it makes it seem more real. because i don’t want to say it’s not in case there is something, but i don’t want to even believe this because i think it’s abit delusional and it’s like a PARADOX! and then whenever i start thinking about exsistential things it horrible because it always just goes back to me possibly have schizophrenia or developing it due to thinking weird stuff about the universe and my identity. and it’s bad because someone in my family has it and due to the diathesis stress model it’s more likely to occur when u have a genetic risk and prolonged environmental stress which i obviously have had now for the past 2 years due to harm and sexual related themes literally scaring the shit out of me :((( and i’m not at the age where it develops yet which is the early 20s so basically there’s still a chance and i’m scared now and don’t rlly know what to do cos i have a feeling the gene is triggered and now i’m just waiting for the symptoms to go fully blown and they’re already beginning. and i keep having this horrible feeling my hands are on backwards and it’s so scary and i feel like i’m having sensory hallucinations… and i get alice and wonderland syndrome where everything starts to feel rlly rlly fast (but i’ve had this since i was young, it’s just been abit more often recently) and i’m getting it more often and i’m just terrified that i’m starting to get hallucinations. I’m basically just venting so other people can feel less alone with this, not seeking any reassurance
Hello, I have hypochondria, gad, ptsd, and panic disorder. For the past 5 months I have been in a deep episode of what I’m hoping is just hypochondria where I’ve fully convinced myself I’m psychotic/developing schizophrenia. This theme has become so debilitating I lost my job and was completely bed bound for a while. Anyway, I have the extreme fear of developing delusions and hallucinations, so I’m constantly on the look out for symptoms like that. For whatever reason I have become extremely sensitive and afraid of anything demonic or horror related, I literally used to be a horror junkie, listen to Marilyn Manson etc. I am literally an atheist, I don’t even believe in the devil or superstitious things like this, but for some reason I have started getting extremely fear inducing demonic type intrusive thoughts, like one night I had the terrifying thought “what if my wife is possessed by a demon and isn’t really my wife” this thought scared the fuck out of me and actually changed my behavior towards my wife and gave me a panic attack, the fear of that later passed, but the uneasy feeling still linger. I’ve been getting all sorts of terrible demonic type intrusive thoughts like that about everybody and random places and even objects and they cause a panic attack everytime I get them, it used to be a panic attack about struggling to fight the urge to believe these thoughts but now I feel like it’s gotten to the point where it just straight up feels like it’s happening and I’m afraid for real and not even questioning the thoughts anymore. I’ve completely stopped listening to any music that references the devil or any type of media that may have dark references, to avoid getting these types of thoughts. When I am not anxious and I take my anxiety medicine (clonazepam) I can laugh these thoughts off and confidently shrug them off as ridiculous, but other times it feels real!Why is this happening to me? Keep in mind I am a literal atheist and do not believe in superstitious things like this, why am I suddenly afraid of things like this? And better yet why do they scare me and “feel real” if I don’t believe them. I feel like I’m fighting for my sanity every single day. I literally dread the anticipation of getting these thoughts. These strange new fears about demonic shit is only solidifying my root fear that I am developing psychosis. Can anyone please help me?
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