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Yes same here, I have extreme guilt from thoughts I have had. I started doing mental checks, so if the thought came up I would say it’s not me this is a harmful thought that isn’t true (basically learning how to set boundaries) letting it not get to you like it used to. If it’s a good thought like oh I did really good on my project or the yard I mark it as a good thought. Sending you love & peace.

Same here totally agree. When i was a kid I just thought I was a bad person for having some thoughts until I realized o didn’t have those thoughts bc I wanted to but I would force my self out of torture to think thoughts i didn’t want to

Im struggling too with this, i feel betrayed by my mind and very upset with my brain, and i feel deeply mentally scarred and cant define it might’ve even given me a new form of PTSD, i want to move on but im so hurt and sometimes angry about it. It does help a bit to know im not alone though