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Yes same here, I have extreme guilt from thoughts I have had. I started doing mental checks, so if the thought came up I would say it’s not me this is a harmful thought that isn’t true (basically learning how to set boundaries) letting it not get to you like it used to. If it’s a good thought like oh I did really good on my project or the yard I mark it as a good thought. Sending you love & peace.
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@bekind94 Definitely not saying it’s easy, I’m still working on it. Like sometimes I’ll be ruminating and don’t even realize myself is in a cloud of bad thoughts and caused me anxiety.
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Same here totally agree. When i was a kid I just thought I was a bad person for having some thoughts until I realized o didn’t have those thoughts bc I wanted to but I would force my self out of torture to think thoughts i didn’t want to
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Im struggling too with this, i feel betrayed by my mind and very upset with my brain, and i feel deeply mentally scarred and cant define it might’ve even given me a new form of PTSD, i want to move on but im so hurt and sometimes angry about it. It does help a bit to know im not alone though
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@bekind94 I fluctuate a lot too, its like what i want is just out of reach and other times i couldn’t feel further away from it. I weirdly worry if im even “recovering” properly or if im doing something wrong.
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Hi everyone, I’m new here, and I wanted to share my experience. I’ve been struggling for over a year now on obsessing over a mistake. And the rumination of the mistake I made has been overwhelming and exhausting in those two years. I feel like such a horrible person. At the time, I didn’t realize what I was doing would affect me so much. When I realized it was wrong, I just said I’ll never do it again, and I moved on. But then months later, I was reminded of what I did, and I felt like I did the worst thing in the world, and that my life will never be normal again. And ever since then, it’s been a constant thought. And it’s exhausting. I have been able to open up to my family and a close friend about it and their reactions were so nonchalant compared to what my brain has been telling me. They say it wasn’t even that bad, and that I shouldn’t be beating myself up. I tell them how badly I feel and they just act like it was nothing. I thought that would help, but my brain continues to tell me how horrible of a person I am and I obsess over this one mistake I made two years ago. I’ve learned from it, I’ve moved on, I’ve opened up about it, I’ve gotten reassurance, but yet it still eats at me. It’s constant some days. Where all I wanna do is lay down in a corner and never leave. I feel like my life will never be normal again and I’ll never experience happiness again. Whenever I smile or feel any type of joy my brain tells me to stop and reminds me that I’m a bad person and I don’t deserve to be happy. Even though everyone tells me what I did wasn’t even that bad. And that it doesn’t make me who I am. But guess it’s not enough and I’m really running out of options.
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