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Remember that OCD thoughts are ego-dystonic, meaning, they go and feed on/against your core values. Your strong reaction to them is what’s keeping them pinned. I am not a therapist, but when I was struggling with similar themes the book, The Imp of the Mind by Lee Baer PhD, was recommended to me. I found it insightful. Particularly around explaining how OCD thoughts are most likely (because there is no 100% certainty) the opposite of what we truly want or believe. If you’re open to a read, it’s worth checking out. All the best!

Ocd is a liar

Ocd is a monster. Don't judge the thought. Thoughts don't mean anything. There just thoughts. Everyone has them. The more you try and stop the thought the more it will pop up. It's a horrible cycle. But your not alone!

This is where I am tripping up on too. During my last session, my therapist straight out asked me if I was a p and wanted to harm kids. I was so anxious because my OCD self wanted to say yes because of the thoughts I had and the week prior I was mental reviewing stuff from the past. But then we broke it down to being with family recently and if I was gonna hurt a child family member and of course I wouldn’t. OCD has these urges to them because it wants answers. But it’s us not being comfortable with the uncertainty. Because of OCD, even if you have it a firm answer you would still end up doubtful trying to answer something else. You’ll never get the answer.