Fear of being in the schizophrenia prodrome

Let's me start by saying I already have a solid mental health team (psychiatrist and therapist). I also am officially diagnosed with hypochondria, GAD, panic disorder, and ptsd. I have had SEVERE anxiety all my life, especially health anxiety, it has made me completely housebound before in the past but I'm having new symptoms and they are scaring me. Has anyone here ever had this same fear obsession? I feel like my brain is fried, my thoughts feel scrambled, I just feel so out of it. I feel like I can't think, I feel lethargic, I have become super sensitive to everything, anything triggers a fear response in me, I can't concentrate, some days | feel so restless that i just want to crawl out of my skin. I feel like I've become socially awkward and more self conscious. I feel like I am having trouble forming sentences and carrying on conversations and I'm not sure if it's because i have become so hyperaware of what I'm saying because i am always on the look out for symptoms like "disorganized speech" and stuff. I'm constantly having mind pops of completely random memories, I'm having racing thoughts and so many more symptoms. I just don't feel like me anymore ): I feel like I will never be normal again, but at the same time I can't even remember what normal is like. I have been deep in this schizophrenia obsession for about 5 months now. If anyone can relate, please comment.

Mollyyy17

Date posted: 1y

My OCD frequently involves fears of “going crazy”, or developing other mental health issues. It is exhausting, I get so paranoid and start overanalyzing everything I think and feel.

Chris7801

Date posted: 1y

I’ve been going through the same thing, I have 2 close relatives who are schizophrenic and I read the DSM-5 criteria religiously. It started when I was a kid not wanting my mom to think I was faking being like them for attention and constantly worrying if I was going to become them. Now that I’m in my early twenties I’m just waiting for the hammer to fall, I feel pretty much everything you described, the fear responses, the restlessness, the stuttering and losing my conversation skills, the constant noise in my head, the lack of normalcy, it all comes back to is it happening? Am I becoming my uncle? Do I actually remember that or did I just imagine it? Do people think I’m schizophrenic? Do they think I’m faking? Am I faking and I don’t realize it? Sorry you’re going through a similar situation, the way the big S is portrayed in our culture makes it seem like leprosy, having that hang over you is exhausting and scary

hr247

Date posted: 1y

have the same thing, i’m even hearing random noises and stuff just because i’m so hyperaware and then think i’m hallucinating

Lilly2442!

Date posted: 1y

@ocdposting How are you now??

hr247

Date posted: 1y

@Lilly2442! like shit

Lilly2442!

Date posted: 1y

Currently struggling with this theme And became hyper aware and sensitive to noise and it makes me so anxious and scared

mrselfdestru...

Date posted: 1y

@Lilly2442! Oh my gosh, same! Every other couple days or so I become extremely sensitive to noise

Lilly2442!

Date posted: 1y

@mrselfdestruct1994 Yes I literally hear everything especially white noise :( it causes me so much anxiety. How do you not let it bother you? it’s so hard to not think your going crazy when you can hear everything 😭

mrselfdestru...

Date posted: 1y

@Lilly2442! Well normally I do pick up on any little noise but when you were saying you were sensitive to noise I was thinking you meant that sounds sounded louder than normal and they bothered your ear more than normal which is what I’m dealing with

Lilly2442!

Date posted: 1y

How do you deal with this theme. This is one of the hardest themes I’ve ever had!

cows12465

Date posted: 23w

fear of psy. and sci.

does anyone else have an intense fear of developing schizophrenia or psychosis. This has been a really heavy theme for me as well. I’m constantly checking to see if I have symptoms or if I’m gonna go crazy or develop these. it’s so scary.

Anonymous

Date posted: 22w

Ocd/going crazy

Hi about a week ago I found out I have ocd and chronic anxiety! I tried zoloft and it was terrible for me. I also started therapy and I take hydroxyzine but I will discuss further medication with my doctor. My question is I have a huge fear that I'm going crazy, I am crazy, or schizophrenic to the point I'm so hyper aware of my surrounding ill look out the corner of my eye to make sure I'm nit seeing anything ill make sure to double check what I'm hearing and it's so draining! I get really scared and go into a panic and cry 😅 I need some reassurance has anyone felt this way my doctor and therapist explained it to me but I'm still very scared. I feel like one day I'll have a break and I won't be the same! I tried the grounding exercise and breathing it helps temporarily. I also cut out smoking weed and none of my family has this but I feel like I have it or ill develope it even though it's rare!

୨ৎ

Date posted: 19w

can ocd make you question your mental health?

i have been diagnosed with OCD & generalized anxiety disorder. for some reason, i’ve been very hyper aware of everything. like the way i talk, the way i see the world, how certain things sound/look/feel, and it’s very distressing. i feel like the hyper awareness makes me afraid of things? like for some reason, my mind attached to cartoons, and i was hyperfocusing on it, and got extremely scared, like scared of the cartoon for no reason? i’ve done this a lot, and i get scared i have psychosis or schizophrenia, or something that makes you afraid of things for no unknown reason. i feel so scared that this is my new normal…. im heartbroken. so many what if’s. did i just ruin my own life?? 💔

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