Mom struggles with feelings during physical closeness with her son due to pocd.

i’m sorry if you only wanted moms to reach out, i’m not a mom, but i understand. i promise you’re not alone in this, it’s a lot more common than people think, because it is such a difficult and uncomfortable thing to talk about. youre clearly stressed out from this, and worried about it, that alone proves that it IS just your OCD thoughts. OCD latches on to the things you love, and also fear most, and it’ll use it against you in any way it can. mentally, physically, emotionally. i know it’s scary, but its NOT you. accepting uncertainty is so difficult, especially in situations like this, but sometimes you have to in order to move on and let go. if you moved immediately, cool! if you didn’t, that’s cool too! a lot of exposure is doing these things that could trigger you and letting the thoughts and feelings pass, and treat them as if they are normal, even if they don’t feel normal, or good. slowly trick your brain into thinking these things cannot and will not bother you. be compassionate to yourself and understand you are so strong

Thank you for taking the time to reply. It helps to know I'm not alone. I hate not knowing if I stayed there for a second on purpose because of the feeling. And the "o" thing also gets me in case that was real

I’m a mom and I deal with pretty much the same exact thing. Please know you aren’t the only one. I know it’s hard but the fact that you’re worrying about it this much is a telling sign of OCD. Take a deep breath, tell OCD “you’re a bully and I don’t need to figure this out” and try your best to move forward. These are things I’ve learned from ERP therapy.

Chrissie hodges has a great youtube channel that you might benefit from. She talks about these things.

i hear you, that sounds really tough and it’s clear you care a lot about doing the right thing as a parent. navigating these intense feelings while wrestling with OCD can be incredibly challenging, especially when it involves your child. you're doing great by reaching out and being open about your struggle— that takes a lot of strength. 💪 by the way, have you heard about this new AI-powered OCD therapy tool called 'unstuck?' i’ve been in your shoes before, and what helped me was this free tool at unstuckmyocd.com/try that my NOCD therapist recommended. i think it'll be especially helpful for you because the AI can offer personalized, step-by-step support during moments just like these, without stepping into reassurance, much like an OCD therapist would. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have Qs or just want to talk more! <3