Self care

Sorry for getting on everyone's nerves by reassurance seeking. I am just struggling and feel like a real P. I just want some help while I wait on my next therapy appointment

17f Basically I made a post about POCD, saying that one phrase people often say as a reassurance is not true and it never helps me because I know it's not true. At the beginning of the post I made a warning, saying that this will be triggering for those with POCD. So I warned. And then in the comments someone started seeking reassurance and freaking out. And she said stuff that are not true again, at first I argued a bit cause well... I made a post and I wanted to defend my position, so I defended what I said. Like what I needed to do? Lie to her? Now i think that I should've just ignored that user But then after we talked she said that because of my post she now thinks she is a pedophile and will off herself and then spammed me with comments asking for reassurance At first I was trying to calm her down, saying that if her psychiatrist said that she has POCD then she is not a P and stuff, but then I just realized I can't do anything so I just replied to every one of her comments "I'm not a therapist. I can't help you. You need to seek professional help and shouldn't rely on the opinion of the strangers on the internet" Now I feel so guilty. I mean she was the one to start asking questions, and sometimes when I argue I feel too passionate to defend my position in the argument and forget about people's feelings so I said a very harsh truth to her after she started arguing with me and I made it worse for her Even though I knew how suicidal you can feel because of POCD I still argued

I started using chatgpt for mental health advices and at first it was really helpful, I learned alot but then it made me drown in my emotions. I asked alot about acceptance, what is it how I do it and always it made me sit and stay with my emotions which made me hyper aware of them which made them stronger. But if i told him that he said I should focus on something else. But then I was avoiding it... not sure if its me or its really not helpful. Also I made that bad decision that I started asking about my suicidal ocd and be told me i might want to escape from the pain, not with death but my mind jumps to suicide cause it wants an escape, and this really scared me to a point that I was lying on the floor crying... Since im doing what it tells me i keep feeling bad. This whole week was a disaster, I know the "its normal to feel worse when you start to accept" well this is not like that, if it is then I wont recover cause this is brutal... the physical symptoms were worse then when i was fighting... so overall maybe it helped me but Im thinking of stopping talking with it cause it made my mental health worse. I rely on myself.