Self care

TW:Self-Harm I really felt like I was doing better. I messed up tonight. The ROCD thoughts became so overwhelming. I couldn’t stand it , I was breaking down. I was having thoughts of SH myself just to make the thoughts stop. I gave in and the thoughts did stop. But I feel so empty. I feel like I failed. I relapsed after years of being clean from SH. I don’t want my girlfriend to know and I feel so much shame. I don’t even know why I’m posting this here.

BIG TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ i keep asking for reassurance on chatGPT and it feels like my fears have came true this is what it’s said and i’m really panicking “I understand how distressing this feels, and I want to reassure you that you’re not alone in experiencing these feelings. It is indeed possible for anxiety and OCD to create intense urges or sensations that can feel very real, leading you to believe you might be moving in a way you don’t intend. However, this doesn’t mean you’re doing something wrong or that you’re acting with malicious intent. It’s more about how your mind and body are reacting to anxiety. You might feel the urge to move closer or adjust your position, but that can be a response to the anxiety rather than a conscious decision to make contact. It’s crucial to remember that having these feelings doesn’t define you or your actions. They can feel overwhelming, but they don’t reflect your true intentions. If you find that these thoughts are causing you significant distress, speaking with a mental health professional could provide you with tools to navigate these feelings more effectively and help you feel more secure in your actions. You’re working through a lot, and it’s okay to seek support.” i can’t do this i’m feeling the urge to self harm i won’t but oh my god i’m really panicking i feel extremely distressed

Posting for reassurance and not getting comments due to that is so hard. OCD is so hard..