OCD or God?

So today while I was talking to myself, sometimes I do this, my mind said something like to ask for a sign from God and I didn’t mean to ask it or even wanting to ask it. I was talking to myself about something that happened a few months back for when I asked God, my grandmother who’s my guardian angel, and St Therese to help me get over the hunch of scrupulosity and OCD (I’m Catholic). They then gave me a sign in Church to let them know that they heard me and I felt peace, love and excitement then. I have been dealing with something lately that I asked them then to send me a sign if something didn’t happen or occurred, even though I couldn’t picture myself saying that. If anything I would have said the exact opposite to prove what happened or occurred, not to show me a sign if something beautiful didn’t happen. Yet the feeling felt so strong as if I did say that and it kept replaying in my mind over and over again. Going back to in the moment, It just went to my mind and blurted to my mouth about asking a sign from God even though I didn’t mean for it or intended it. I then got a thought thinking that I saw something later this morning thinking that God sent me a sign about something. Well, later this morning while looking at my daily Bible app, I saw something and my mind and feelings said that God sent me that sign. Now I’m flooded with anxiety because I was getting these thoughts before and now they like manifested into reality. It’s like as if God planted those thoughts in my head to tell me what’s coming and what will happen. I’m so angry, anxious and sad. I’m scared now that what I didn’t say is actually something that I said. It’s like God is constantly trying to tell me something and he’s keeping on telling me as if he’s playing a game with me and he won’t do it until I give up and give in. I don’t know what to do. I felt very depressed last night because last night because I couldn’t take this anymore as if God is telling me these things or he revealed me to something. Is this God or OCD that’s doing all this to me? I know it’s a lot but I just need feedback from you guys

Username: ElevenBElevenB

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 48w ago

I don't know about you. But for me asking for signs is/was a compulsion. God doesn't play games with you but OCD does. It's hard to tell the difference between the 2. Can you just try to sit with the uncertainty of not knowing? I know we want to hear from God but during the test the teacher is often silent.

Username: anthonycaronnaanthonycaronna

Date posted: 48w ago

@ElevenB No it’s kinda like that for me too. I stopped asking for signs it just popped up into my head and now I saw something. Thing is I wasn’t trying to hear from God or anything I was just trying to think about something else and then bam!

Username: victoriagreennvictoriagreenn

Date posted: 48w ago

God wouldn’t play “games” with you. That doesn’t line with his character but I battle the same thoughts that it’s always some game and I need to give in or else. It’s like I know the truth but still allow those thoughts to debilitate me. I don’t believe that God is in the playing field of manipulation at all.

Username: ElevenBElevenB

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 48w ago

@victoriarosee. So true. I do the same thing.

Username: MentalHealthMatters!MentalHealth...

Date posted: 48w ago

It's ocd. I've gone through the same and I'm Catholic also. Mark DeJesus helped me. But you know when you'll start feeling better? When you really truly put the techniques into practice. Start slow, you'll start noticing the difference. Ocd is a journey it won't happen over night. You need God in the right way and the right tools to fight this ocd battle. God doesn't want to play games or confuse you. He doesn't give you messages that will distort you, make you spiral in ocd or be full of anxiety. I will pray a rosary for you! God bless!

Username: ash03etash03et

Date posted: 48w ago

Yeah God doesn’t force you in anything

Username: ash03etash03et

Date posted: 48w ago

@ash03et He’s not like that

Username: Waging War Against OCDWaging War A...

Date posted: 48w ago

I feel for you. I am a Protestant and have not struggled with looking for signs, but often wondering what God's will is - and have let OCD wreack havoc on that particular part of my life. I recently publsihed a book called "Waging War Against OCD - A Christian Approach to Victory." You can see more details at WagingWarAgainstOCD.com I suggest looking up Mark DeJesus as well. He speaks of this among many other topics. I was listening to this just this morning.... https://open.spotify.com/episode/4vS9EapaOSJ2UdXOpEFvSg?si=reuiVpj8TeOgdTgIeP5W2g&nd=1&dlsi=e93da1ea7a8544f1

Username: ElevenBElevenB

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 48w ago

@anthonycaronna. Yeah that has happened with me as well.

Username: EmWest

Date posted: 4y ago

Christians with OCD- I feel like I’ve been getting signs saying I should abandon all secular media and potentially leave behind much of my family and friends to live a more “holy” life and leave behind “worldly culture” , I struggle to identify this as OCD as I’m scared it’s just me trying to avoid the “hard truths” that I just don’t want to face. What if God is sending me all these signs (admittedly through tiktok mostly) and I just brush them off as OCD because they make me feel bad? Anyone else experience this?

Religion & Spirituality OCD

Username: ellij

Date posted: 42w ago

Thinking of everything as a “sign”

I often tend to connect things to each other and look at everything as a sign. For example, I had a horrible ROCD flare up in the summer and I remember looking at my phone and a song was on about moving on. Then my OCD thoughts kicked in telling me that God was trying to show me that I need to get out of my relationship and move on. Lately, I have been struggling with False memory OCD and am constantly checking if I did something to cheat on my boyfriend with guy friends I used to Snapchat. Like what if I don’t remember I did something or said something to one of them? Anyway, in the midst of all of this, I opened a fortune cookie after eating at a Chinese restaurant. The fortune read something like, “a former acquaintance is going to unexpectedly resurface in your life” and that completely put me into a spiral. My OCD is telling me that’s a sign from God that I did something with another guy and he is going to resurface in my life and ruin my relationship. I feel so guilty even though I know I didn’t do anything. I just can’t help but to look at things like signs. Like why did I see that at this time. Is that God trying to tell me something? Can anyone relate? It would be so relieving if someone could share a story similar.

Username: GHOST22

Date posted: 39w ago

Real Event OCD/Signs from God

Anyone deal with this? Uncertainty regarding an event in your past. You wonder was anyone hurt but you can never know for sure. Always fearing you are going to get in trouble one day. Then on top of that the thoughts regarding the event feel so real that you walk around defeated feeling like you are so bad and you should just tell everyone. Then the intrusive thoughts that make you fear the worst case scenario are always in your head all day everyday for a year. Then you start seeing confirmation/signs of your worst fear/intrusive thoughts everywhere that seem to confirm your fears. You start wondering is God trying to tell you something because every thing you watch, see, hear seems to point to or talk about what you’re obsessing about. Then because of the uncertainty you ask God to tell you what the outcome of the event was. Then all of a sudden you start seeing more signs of your theme and think is God confirming this. Then there are days where you get or see confirmation debunking your fear of worst case scenario and you wonder is God giving me signs in the other direction now.

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