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- 5y ago
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- Date posted
- 5y ago
This is COMPLETELY normal for HOCD, and honestly very common. I wouldn’t unfollow them if I were you , why give your fears the power to control your life after all ? Avoiding people of the same sex is one of the most common parts of HOCD. I think you should sit with the fears and not avoid anyone of the same sex, because avoiding them isn’t getting under the fear, it’s only prolonging the anxiety. The best thing you can do is to confront your fears and tell them you won’t let them take control of you. Reassurance is also very relieving, but trust me, it does way more harm than good. It will always come back again, sometimes when you least expect it, because it’s keeping you in the vicious cycle of OCD. You have to make the fear not a fear anymore. Best of luck to you, if you ever need anything at all feel free to reach out !
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- 5y ago
I get scared I’ll be attracted to my friends but when I’m with them I don’t really feel anything but just laugh with them because that’s what friends do ?, it’s weird how this works except once I decided to see how it felt if I thought about marrying my friend and I felt this really weird feeling like if I was happy and I got freaked out. But then I thought about what married couples do and I was like “ew” and idk why my mind works the way it does. I hate it. I’m really deep into this and I can’t seem to crawl back out.
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- 5y ago
Don’t worry i’m in the same boat. It’s so weird how it all works! Tbh you probably felt happy about the idea of marrying your best friend bcos they’re your best friend (if you get me haha!!) I’m the same around my friends too...all my friends have always been really close and touchy feely, like always giving hugs and cuddling and stuff and i’ve been struggling with that recently ! But i’m confident we’ll all get there x
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- 5y ago
You put it perfectly , it really is like being trapped in your own head ?? it sounds like you know that you’re attracted to guys, but you still worry that you’re attracted to girls too. You are still the person you were before you started worrying about this, but the anxiety has taken over and blurred the lines so much to the point where it’s hard for you to tell who you are. I know it’s hard. Do you have anyone else to talk to about this ?
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- 5y ago
My personal problem is that i’ve never really been overly bothered about sex genuinely, I think i’m somewhere on the asexual spectrum (maybe demi-sexual), so I think that heightens my OCD and anxieties. I do but don’t really openly talk about it because no one really understands
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- Date posted
- 5y ago
@mariaxx I think you summed it up perfectly. We get these fears because they don’t represent us or our desires , and that’s why they’re so strong and intrusive. But it’s great that we can all talk on here and be understood :)
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- 5y ago
@ellsss Yeah , going back all the way to your childhood is very difficult and you spend so much time on the smallest details of it. But I’m sure you know that childhood is a period of major development , so it’s hard to label yourself just from one thing. And also , false memories can come up because of OCD. We don’t remember as much as we think we do ;) I’m so sorry about the panic attacks.
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- 5y ago
Anytime , you’ll never be alone??and I think looking back that far was one of the worst parts for me tbh. It really is difficult
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- 5y ago
Unfortunately I still have it ?? but the theme has changed now :/
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- 5y ago
@ellsss
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- 5y ago
This is me exactly as well
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- 10w ago
I’m 25 and never ever thought this before my soocd relapse. I have a bf of 5 years. Never been a high libido kinda girl. Don’t get me wrong I do get turned on by my bf but not like every day you know? - That had always been in the back of my head, is this normal and ok? But my ocd has latched onto the most scariest what if EVER. My brain is now saying How do you know you won’t prefer to sleep and kiss girls if you haven’t tried it: and it’s that unknown that is scaring the shit out of me. I DONT AND NEVER HAVE wanted to sleep / kiss a girl. But now my intrusive thoughts is all I think about!!! I don’t want I don’t want I don’t want??? So why does my brain think BUT WHAT IF??? I know ocd thrives off uncertainty which is why I think this is happening? But I don’t wanna find out or work it out because all I want is to be with my bf and marry him!! Is this just the epitome of OCD?
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- 8w ago
Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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- 5w ago
So I’ve talked to a couple of gay people and they all told me the same thing. They ALWAYS knew they liked guys and they have ever gotten aroused by a woman in their life. In fact they told me that they always found a woman’s body disgusting. Looking back in my life I’ve been attracted to girls for as long as I can remember even before puberty. All my fantasies were about girls and I can’t remember a time where I felt the same for a guy (because it never happened). At the end I can still get aroused by women and you can clearly see how much stupid this obsession about being gay is. Gay people can’t get instinctively aroused by a woman and like it. Groinal responses and sensations don’t mean anything because they simply do not bring joy or a feeling of desire. Instead they bring panic. I once got a groinal when “testing my reactions” and I was sitting there crying like my life is over. That’s not how genuine attraction works and no one has woken up one day feeling different and no one has been secretly gay and never noticed it and spent his whole life into women instead.
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