Feeling Crazy

Do anyone else’s intrusive thoughts sometimes take up entire days where you feel completely dissociated and detached from reality? Lately my thoughts have been so scattered and intrusive that it’s like I don’t think about anything BUT my obsession. and unfortunately because i suffer from retroactive jealousy, my obsession is my boyfriends most recent ex. i feel like a creep that i’m always thinking about this person, whether they had sex, whether they held hands, etc. no matter how many times he tells me that it wasn’t a good relationship and they had no connection, it still eats me alive. I feel consumed by my thoughts and like I can’t even hold a conversation with him or be present in the moment. I want relief. 😢