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- 1y
Mid week blues
Today I feel Stressed, un-worthy, ignored , and forgotten. What’s worse when your feelings are invalidated.
Today I feel Stressed, un-worthy, ignored , and forgotten. What’s worse when your feelings are invalidated.
I'm going through the same thing with my mom right now. I gave her a boundary and she crossed it. I told her not to do it again and she did it again. I told her it upset me. She yelled. So I told her I wouldn't speak to her again until next week. I told her we both needed a time out to think about how we were acting. People will never like it when you give them boundaries. But just like kids don't like bedtimes or vegetables you have to do them anyways because its what's best for them. You cannot change their behavior, but you can change how you interact with them as a result of them not changing. I can't get my mom to stop giving out my personal information but I can stop giving her private information for her to give out.
@Anonymous That is extremely helpful. Things like this can get very messy especially when attempting to make a point. Just hoping for the best especially because it’s work related.
How are your feelings being invalidated?
@Anonymous When given the opportunity to speak, it’s quickly belittled and gaslighted. I am one to think on things before I act and when it’s time to bring up small boundary requests, it is not an option
Yes it is very messy when it's work related. The best thing I was ever told about dealing with work stuff is "document everything, and get everything in writing if possible." that way you have proof if you need to go to a boss with a complaint.
Yes indeed. I’m just afraid the bullying is effecting my attendance, immune system, and positive outlook
Feels like I wanna act on the thoughts I’m stressed out
I can't even look at myself in the mirror. I've spent the morning crying, and I feel like I don't deserve to. I feel like I'm a horrible person or a... you know. I'm so sick of this. I'm just so tired of everything. I don't see my psychiatrist until two weeks from now. How am I going to make it till then? :( Even writing this post, I feel like I'm deceiving everyone and that I'm actually a monster. I'm so convinced of this right now. I don't know what to do. I was literally okay a few days ago. I don't even know what's real and what's not, like... I think I do? But everything is so distorted. I can't stop replaying memories trying to figure things out. I really need my psychiatrist right now. I feel like I need to confess, like I've been trying so hard not to, but every person I see, I just keep thinking about how badly I want to ask them if I'm a bad person or not, and that makes me feel worse. A good person wouldn't feel the need to ask that over and over again, would they? What if I'm just seeking validation because I can't accept that?
Last week was a lot easier for me. I felt like thoughts didn’t control me and my actions as much as they did earlier. Today was really hard for me and I feel like I’m starting to lose hope again:( I can’t take the thoughts and the feelings that come with them anymore. I feel like I have failed and I’m never going to be happy again.
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