- Date posted
- 1y
I fear I sinned really bad
What do you do when you questioned something about God or thought something bad about Him and now fear that He will never forgive you, especially since you still have doubts and questions about Him?
What do you do when you questioned something about God or thought something bad about Him and now fear that He will never forgive you, especially since you still have doubts and questions about Him?
God will always forgive you. We’re all sinners but he loves you so much no matter what. Never feel like he doesn’t love you, he loves you so so much.
I struggle with the exact same thing… I have religous OCD. Think about Thomas the disciple. He was a doubter… so many people Jesus chose doubted him, before christ people who faithfully followed God at times doubted him. This is where your faith comes in. We are human and its hard to control your thoughts, we often have wondering minds. But questioning and doubting as a believer is not unforgivable but instead a chance to lean into him and trust, pray through it and strengthen our faith. Iv had very bad hateful intrusive thoughts about the holy trinity, and it was terrifying and painful, but i don’t want those things and i don’t believe those things. I just pray, repent of all knowing sins, ask for conviction, and keep loving and trusting him. God always knows the true us, not what OCD thoughts make us believe about ourselves.
Look up scrupulosity it will help you. Jamie at scrupolosity.com and Mark DeJesus on you tube were tremendous help. I also loved the book I believe in Love by Fr.Jean C.J. D’Elbee
I feel awful. I feel like I’ve received a test from God and failed. I got a groinal response while looking through instagram and saw a picture of a kid. I turned my screen off and laid in bed and I tried to recreate the feeling. I twitched my hips a bit, trying to see if it was real arousal, but now I feel like I don’t deserve to feel better and I’m convinced I am going to hell and will burn for what I’ve done. There was no joy or true desire there, but still, what kind of person does that? I thought OCD meant avoid avoid avoid, that’s not what I did. I don’t feel like a can wait another whole day before my session. Has any else had a similar experience? How do you forgive yourself and keep going when you feel like this?
Yesterday I kept thinking about something sad about God like yk when you feel disappointed in God sometimes :( so I had just gotten a really bad thought of God turning into a demon …. And it felt like like I was thinking it for a sec like intentionally… and I quickly started to panic and feel really bad bc I Love God a lot but I’m afraid I committed the Unforgivable sin aka blasphemy my brain gets to addicted to think about certain things I can’t think about
Does anyone feel like god didn't forgive them even after confessing? Doing alot of sins and confessed but still have this fear of thoughts telling you you had so bad Thoughts about him and that you don't deserve to be forgiven? Or it's too late? And anything religious triggers you?
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