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Restaurant
Going to a restaurant for this tasting. My friend is late and we need to walk. The tickets were free so it doesn’t totally matter. I’m having a lot of catastrophizing thoughts.
Going to a restaurant for this tasting. My friend is late and we need to walk. The tickets were free so it doesn’t totally matter. I’m having a lot of catastrophizing thoughts.
Ah man, that sounds really disappointing about the restaurant, I’m sorry you experienced that. Sometimes my thoughts ramp up and get really intense. It makes me think, “whoa, how did I get here? Just a while ago I was fine. This seems like such a small thing but now it’s gotten bigger.” I don’t really know yet how I should deal with that best. But I do know, that my thoughts have less power when I don’t push them away. I saw this cool video of guy sharing a visualization technique for OCD and it’s been helping me a lot. I picture a party! With decorations and music and food and all sorts of things I like. And then my thoughts come and they try to crash the party. And they expect me to say, “nooooo, get out! You’re not welcome here!” But instead, I put a party hat on them and say, “hey thoughts! Welcome to the party. Make yourself comfortable, mingle!” And they thoughts are so shocked that they’re like, “wh- wh- what?!” Anyways 😅, I’m kinda rambling, but you get the point.
Went and my coworker was there with her boyfriend and a couple friend of theirs. I feel weird about did me and my friend crash their group hang because they invited us to sit with them but it is what it is. I’m went and stayed despite feeling a lot of discomfort.
Because you are tuned into them. Try and tune them out. The more tuned in you are, the more the thoughts will attack your mind. Remember, you are the one that's real. Not them
I forced myself out for a drink with my girlfriend and her friends as my thoughts were being centered around this will happen if you go etc. I said I wasn't going to drink a lot but then the thoughts subsided and I started drinking more and when we were in the last pub I got racing instrusive thoughts of murdering/raping and causing harm to people and myself. These intensified when we got home and the vivid images of the acts I was commuting were so vile and graphic (skinning people/eating there brains and organs to name a few), I tried talking to my girlfriend about the thoughts of killing her family etc and she likes not judged me but couldn't handle the thoughts and that made me spiral to the point of having suicidal thoughts and making an attempt for my own life. I didn't tell her I was feeling suicidal or that I didn't want to act on these thoughts and now I feel terrible. I have been told to sit with the imagery and thoughts but how does one do that when its constant.
Okay, i leave for vacation tomorrow with my boyfriend and some of our friends. i’m so nervous about this trip and im really worried that i would hurt someone on this trip. i don’t want to hurt anyone, and im so so worried about it. i don’t even want to go anymore because im so stressed out. i’m not really getting any intrusive thoughts or anything but im still so anxious that im going to do something like stab one of my friends or my boyfriend, or lose my mind. i’m so worried. and then i seen this thing that said “people who hurt people do that because they want to and they plan it out” so now im scared that im subconsciously planning on hurting one of them even though i dont have a plan or anything and i dont want to hurt anyone. AGGHH😭
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