I have intense compulsions to pick at my skin when I feel anxious or sedentary or stimulated. I’ve heard that this compulsion is called “skin picking disorder” but the research on that topic has yielded no productive results. Often when I get the compulsion to cut myself, I can satiate it with picking. Does anyone else experience this?

I’ve been feeling the urge to avoid intimacy or purposefully engage (for reassurance that I won’t give into a compulsion) because of intrusive thoughts and fear that I’ll “check/test” my reactions. My OCD is making me so scared that I’ll purposefully think of a child and try to see if I like it. It’s so complicated but I guess I’m mentally checking if I would mentally check during intimacy. I’ve even envisioned myself checking and it’s making me so nauseous. I know it’s a compulsion like any other but the sound of “touching yourself to the thought of a child” sounds atrocious and vile. I’m terrified I’ll automatically start checking next time I am being intimate. I truly feel so worried. If anyone has gone through something similar, I’d appreciate hearing your experience. Or if anyone has any advice?

I think I might have dermatillomania. I am not self diagnosing. I get skin picking so bad that my whole back is covered in sores, there's at least 40 of them. I also pick at my head horribly I seriously cannot stop either. I have open sores all over my head and pick and pick and just can never stop. Sometimes I don't notice, and I'm always looking for a spot to pick at. I looked at all the symptoms and ik it runs with ocd. Whenever I get anxious my skin picking becomes very severe. Whenever I wake up I pick at my head too. I seriously don't know how to stop picking and I'm trying to get a diagnostic for dermillomania. I also have started to pick at my nose horribly. I have these blackhesd removers and I keep using them constantly on my face, everytime I'm home from school I use them on my nose and pick at everything on my face.

Does anyone else struggle with this? I get a sense of dread and then I feel like the need to find the answer. For me it’s about like sexual reproduction or like some other taboo topic. Especially anything reproductive related to children or pets. I feel so awful after researching. I don’t know if the compulsion is to research or to ruminate about my intentions after researching. I have a hard time understanding why this happens I’m assuming it a question of morality? Like “what does this say about me if I wondered this and looked into it?” Does anyone relate to this?