Rocd

Yes, I did. I ended a 6 year relationship at the end of September because of my ROCD (before I was diagnosed with OCD and really understood what was happening to me). My focus was on the rightness of the relationship, rather than a trust issue and I have had my OCD move onto another theme since the breakup. This was my first long-term relationship so I don't have anything to compare against. We are in counseling together now and reconciling, but the old themes are coming up again. This time I know I need to ignore them/work through them though.

I’m fairly sure I have. Was 26, dating someone I was really into. Thought out of nowhere (or a feeling more like it) that “I didn’t feel anything for her”. It didn’t make sense to me…how? Why? Instant anxiety, panic and fear. I didn’t want to lose feeling for her, what? After a month or so of obsessively trying to figure it out. Going over and over again, I eventually broke up. Not one thing changed when we broke up. I still needed to know why or how I can just lose feelings. And as my obsessions got worse, it moved to “I have lost my attraction to women”. Which obviously led to “you are gay” That was 10 years ago. I still struggle with the SOOCD theme today. I hate it. None of it makes any sense.