Scrupulosity

Hello I'm sorry you are going through this. I do as well.

Yes. Started when I was 8. Hard not to try to correct these thoughts but that only makes it worse. Try to just sit with it.

You're welcome.

Yes, I did. I had it as a teenager and became and atheist. The Scrupulosity came back but it was followed by some dark years. I came back to Christ at around 18 and this time pushed through the Scrupulosity with God’s help and today at 19 I’ve had a breakthrough and receive Holy Communion more often. Getting to know Jesus is a life transforming thing and despite the struggles with Scrupulosity, I’ve **never** been happier in my entire life than I am now. I am fully serious about that. When I get thoughts like that (and I might recommend editing your post to remove the quote or taking it down) I look at Jesus with my will and realise that he simply does not care. He doesn’t want me to fret about them. They have dissipated since. Trust in God, and ask for the help needed to overcome your scruples. All the best to you, I will Pray for you. And if you need to know what my intrusive thoughts sound like, I’d be happy to give you an idea. Trigger warning! ⚠️⚠️ They are usually Blasphemous, (sometimes sexual) and just horrid. But I am fully confident that God does not care. Jesus loves me and you too much to punish us for (let alone care about) accidental Blasphemous thoughts that make us distressed which we do not want or consent to. All the best to you my friend.

I don’t know if you’re getting counseling for ocd or not. I have been with NOCD for two years and it has been a huge help. I am a Christian. I became a Christian when I was 18. That is when I came to believe in the Lord Jesus. As the Gospel of John chapter 1 verse 12 says, “But as many as received Him (Jesus) to them he gave the right to become children of God even to those who believe in His name”. I’m now 63. I’ve had ocd since my 20’s not knowing what it was. Then two years ago it skyrocketed. That is when I started getting counseling with NOCD. I have learned not to interrupt how God works through my ocd but use the Bible to interpret how God works. The Holy Spirit will convict us of things we have done wrong but it is a work that produces freedom and forgiveness not guilt. There is no pleasing of guilt. OCD produces guilt with no way to appease it. 1st John chapter 1 verse 9 says “If we confess our sins He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness”. This is Truth regardless of how I feel. I understand your struggle. We can work at having ocd having less of a hold on our life. It is an hour by hour practice of not paying attention to ocd and not fighting with ocd. Just acknowledge the thought and move on.

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