Why does it feel like I want to harm someone? Why does it feel so real? What if I want this???? I’m not even focused on the actual thoughts like the images I can’t even real imagine anything it’s just the feeling that comes with it or like “the what if you WANT to?”
I have been battling with this too and I feel like I'm going crazy and I worry daily that I'm going to just "snap" some day. It's so exhausting fighting the thoughts.
@HydrangeaForce Same here :(
I feel like these thoughts are just gonna cause me to lose control because the anxiety will be to much to handle and will overwhelm me and it’ll cause me to snap:( which has me questioning what if I’m actually crazy. It’s so debilitating
Yes!!!! This is exactly how I've been feeling 😢. I can't get out of this loop. All I want to do is crawl in a hole away from my loved ones to protect them.
@HydrangeaForce Yes same here. You aren’t alone:(
I feel your pain. It’s just awful. I’ve been living like this for 7 months now. I’m 37 and I’ve never had feelings like this before. Mostly directed at my 5 year old. I feel so trapped and helpless. Doing ERP but the thoughts always return. It’s such a vicious cycle. I would give anything to feel better.
@Anonymous It’s been a year now for me mostly toward my toddler and 7 year old. I say I hate it so much and wish I could go back to normal but then there’s a thought right after that “do you really hate it? Maybe you don’t want to go back maybe you like this and it’s your true self.” Idk I feel like I’m the only one who thinks like this
@Anonymous Sorry for the late reply I am new to NOCD. Yes the pure ocd ‘being stuck in my head’ has been really hard lately. I just purchased a pure ocd book and hoping it helps. I just keep getting this constant thought that I’m broken inside and I’ll never get better and that really is so hard to handle.
There are just thoughts 💭 you are not your thoughts it is your ocd trying to trick you 🫠
It almost feels like it’s pushing you and pushing you… I have this ocd I know what it’s like.
hey there, i totally get how scary and overwhelming those thoughts can feel, especially when they seem so real. 😣 you're not alone in this. you should try "unstuck," it's an ai-powered tool that's designed to help folks with ocd (just google "unstuck app for ocd" to find it). my nocd therapist put me onto it and it's been a game-changer for me this past month – might be worth a shot for you too. hang in there. 💪
You are not alone! Struggling with this type of thing too! It is OCD!
I feel the same way :( also when someone is speaking of their future, I get intrusive thoughts telling me that I will act on my thoughts so the person won’t have a future. It’s awful because it feels so real
Does your harm ocd thoughts ever tell you you want to do the things your worried about? I always worry I’m gonna become a serial killer or just go crazy and kill people. Everytime I worry about this I go no no I don’t want to do that I’d never do that but my thoughts tell me “I do wanna do that I’m an evil person” and “I wanna kill people” these leads me to even more anxiety and I literally burst into tears everytime it’s horrible
Hey y’all i need to know if someone relates to what I’m going through. I feel almost like if I wanted to act on my thoughts but I actually don’t because this doesn’t please me at all. So if someone told me “You have Harm OCD” I would be like “really? So I don’t wanna harm people? Neither am I capable?” I have no clue why would that be my answer when I haven’t desired anything. But somehow it makes me feel like I do, and consequently makes me feel like I’m in denial. So it feels like if an unconscious part of me wants to do it but I am just resisting. I literally can’t go anywhere, I don’t wanna live any second more, because I feel so disturbed all the time. I feel like I’m gonna end up doing it, I feel so overwhelmed by these feelings,thoughts, images, urges, that I would avoid everything, like going anywhere. I hate feeling like this but I feel like there’s no way back, i can’t picture myself being good in the future because I feel like “this is what i want” when it’s not. I feel like it’s a time bomb for me to do something. I do not tolerate this, every minute that passes by I feel it closer to happen. I feel like I’m gonna collapse and act on it. I don’t even know if that’s what I want, but I don’t think it is, I think it just feels like it. Help I don’t know what to do.
I am really struggling. I feel like I have a constant harm related intrusive thought in my head, causing a horrible intrusive feeling in my head. Even if I’m just simply scrolling and see someone sometimes this feeling of an intrusive thought becomes present, leading it to become horrid intrusive thoughts and feelings. I would never want to hurt anyone. Let alone do it and I’m struggling so much. I feel like I have a constant harm related intrusive thought in my head and feeling. Which is reinforced when I look at people. It goes when im distracted and then i remember the horrid feeling. I feel like bursting into tears, ive had enough. Can anyone relate? I feel like a constant intrusive thought and feeling IN my head im so sad :( I feel horrid. Scared ill go crazy.
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