HIV OCD. I’m tired of it!!

I was at the gas station and the guy next to me pumping gas was talking to me and wanted to shake my hand. I have HIV OCD and I’m afraid that somebody will prick me and why Avoid handshakes or touching people. I ended up, shaking his hand as “exposure therapy”. I told myself to not live in fear and challenge myself and do an exposure to prove to myself that I can handle it. I’m sitting in my car and I’m trying not to let the negative thought get to me. I know if he would’ve pricked me, I would’ve felt it, I would’ve had a bloody stingy finger. I remember his hands being soft. I’m trying really hard to overcome my fears.

Username: Iloveyou24Iloveyou24

Date posted: 45w ago

Great job, that must have been so hard to do and you did a great job!

Username: Brian_187Brian_187

Date posted: 45w ago

U need to watch the contaniminagion episode of hit the sos! Button it’s the round blue button on the bottom right

Username: ljms ljms

Date posted: 45w ago

I also have this type of fear, shaking someone’s hand is a great step and would be hard for me also. I am proud of you! It feels debilitating—I am also tired of it and trying exposure therapy, so you are not alone!

Username: JennyAnderson09JennyAnderson09

Date posted: 45w ago

hey, that was really brave of you to face your fear head-on like that. it's a huge step and you should be proud for challenging those OCD thoughts. 🙌 you might wanna try "unstuck" – it's this new ai-powered tool for ocd support (just google "unstuck app for ocd" and it should pop up). my nocd therapist put me onto it and it's been super helpful for me in the past month. could be worth a shot for you too! 💡

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 5y ago

Anyone with hiv ocd that recovered and can help

Contamination OCD

Username: Cheeks

Date posted: 5y ago

I have really bad HIV OCD. I had a really low risk "hiv exposure" when I was a kid (16 or 17) with my high school boyfriend. This was 7 years ago and I've taken 2 BioSURE HIV tests since then and both were negative, but I just cannot accept it. Anytime anyone I know gets ill I think it's because I've passed on hiv to them somehow, and it's worse with my brother as we used to rough and tumble all the time as kids/teens. I'm back in that place where everything feels dark and I'm riddled with guilt and anxiety.

Username: danocd

Date posted: 5y ago

I have a problem that I'm scared to catch a serious illness like hiv or aids from kissing people or becoming to close to them. It makes me get away from people and I have problems in relationships because I cant trust them if they are clean and I'm too freak... this Sunday I kissed a girl I met on tinder and she made me an scar on my mouth... and now I feel terrible cause if her blood got into my scar I may have caught hiv. I have been 3 days on terrible distress and this sucks... I dont know how to not think about it and I really dont talk to this girl anymore, I checked her mouth 2 or 3 times for injuries or blood (she didn't had any and I dont know if she has hiv or not) but I'm in terrible distress just for the fact that I had an open cut while kissing her and thst kiss could have made me sick with hiv. I really hate this and I hate myself and my decisions of kissing her. And this combines qith my religious compulsions... I'm really hating myself, OCD and illness right now... I'm in big distress and just want to vent a little bit. I just hope I didn't caught hiv from kissing this girl that made me an open cut as I said before but I cant be sure and this makes me crazy.... I just hate it... and hate this thoughts

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