The worst is when ocd latches on to your children. I’ve been having intrusive thoughts about my daughter that have me so depressed. I know none of it is true but the ocd really tries to convince me that it is. Any other parents experience this??
Look how brave we all are for sharing our worst fears here. I completely relate and it's horrible. I struggle too and find that saying it out loud and hearing others experience this too makes me feel like I'm not alone. Infact we are kind, caring people who have to remember ocd attaches to what you care about most. I struggle with POCD theme and harm. It's hell but I'm hopeful erp is going to help. It already has and I haven't been doing it very long. The physical response sucks. I totally get it. I have a child and it definitely has been tough. I also work with kids and it has made me want to quit my job. I have powered through but it's been so incredibly difficult. I never had this theme before until I got this job and it's been so difficult.
1000000% you are not alone
You are not alone. It's absolutely the worst. I definitely understand.
Not children, but I've had it concerning my wife, which is absolutely terrifying to me. I've learned that a thought is a thought is a thought, and not a threat or an action. I've also learned that OCD will latch on to who and what you value, and fear. Finally, I've learned that "we all have thoughts that would shame hell." (Samuel Johnson) My therapist taught me that it's not the content of the thought that's important, it's how we react to it. If we become indifferent to them, no matter how vile and disgusting the thoughts, it takes away OCD's mojo and the episodes begin to dissipate. Do you have a trained OCD therapist who uses ERP? Plenty of great ones through the NOCD website. That's where I found mine. Hope this helps.
Yup. This is me 🫠 im finding it really hard to move past the “groinal response” it one thing for the thoughts its another for physical sensations. Its like another layer of guilt and shame.
I struggle with the thoughts of am I holding my daughter too long…I can feel her crotch….Always being aware of where she is in the room and being terrified she will run up to me and bump into my crotch
I think the problem is id say everyone knows deep down theyre not doing anything wrong, but when you struggle with focusing on these thoughts/sensations regardless if youre not doing something wrong in reality… it feels like you are because this is what youre thinking about while around them. Truly it just sucks . ive dealt with themes sexual in nature when i was young , before kids, same sensations and worries. They passed . For years nothing, now 30…Kids of my own , it feels back with a vengeance. I kinda thought id be able to kick it since ive been through it before but maybe because its much more personal now its like a new battle. Anywho. Im not sure how to go about this through the app but if everyone responding here wants to keep a chat going here regarding this topic and all the Bs that comes with it, i know id be grateful. Love to hear what everyone has to say. Even if its just to vent ❤️
I am always questions my intentions with the smallest things and feel like it’s driving me crazy. Do I just get to the point that my ultimate intentions are good?
I work with kids too! For me i feel on one hand its good ERP! On the other, i can get sucked back into the spiral because im bothered its even happening in the first place !Especially since before this flare up i wasnt experiencing this at all, so you have the thought like “i wish it could go back to how it was before this episode “ but then the ocd is like “ but this must just be who you truly are” , no winning with ocd 💩
Hows everyone feeling? I’m finding myself just constantly mentally reviewing, ruminating… you know the usual lol but i feel part of the reason i keep getting pulled into the cycle is the “guilt/shame” factor. Does anyone have any words to deal with this aspect? Brief example -Has a groinal response - goes thru mental compulsions to understand the groinal response ( sometimes arrives at acceptance of ocd) - still feels guilty about it anyways 🫠
You’re not alone! Currently struggling so so bad with similar situation & i cant eat because of it, my moods have taken a turn no matter whos there, its so hard! I spiralled yesterday and now i cant get out.
I feel so drained, I’ve been having sexually intrusive thoughts about my daughter. I keep telling myself what if I did this or that and it makes me think I did do something harmful towards her when I know I haven’t. Ugh I hate my ocd it’s always playing with my mind and makes me feel like a bad mom :(
Lately my ocd is latching onto my children. In my opinion, for me, this is the most painful and most debilitating theme of ocd. My daughter asked me to help her wash and rinse the shampoo from her hair while she was in the shower because she has thick hair and sometimes she has trouble shampooing and rinsing it all out. A normal, common task for me. At some point I caught a glimpse of her private area and my ocd immediately tried to make me believe I looked intentionally. I know I didn’t and I know I do not think of her or any child in that way but now my ocd has me questioning myself. I was just doing what I always do so I don’t remember at what point I saw it. Was I reaching for and looking down for the shampoo when I saw it or was I reaching up to her hair and saw it as I looked up? Did I look due to just normal human tendency to look where we know we’re not supposed to and if that’s the case does that make me horrible? I’m driving myself insane trying to prove I do NOT feel or think that way about her. I don’t want to live if this is how my brain works. Ocd is evil and this is the hardest kind of intrusive thought to get past. 😩
Having ocd can either make life difficult or painful or both depending on the theme(s). For me it’s painful. My ocd latches onto my children. I have very upsetting harm and pocd intrusive thoughts. Sometimes it’s easy to shrug them off but other times the ocd makes it seem likes it’s me thinking these things and it feels so real and it has me so depressed. I never used to see any parents posting about this but recently there have been a few. I know it’s really hard to talk about but sharing can help us all feel less alone and more supported. I’m grateful to anyone that offers support because I feel so defeated lately. 😞
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