POCD
I believe I’ve been suffering from POCD since 2019. Every second of the day I keep telling myself that it’s just my intrusive thoughts and one day I’ll get better but my biggest fear is it isn’t POCD and I’m in denial about who I really am. Anyone know where and how I can get help because I’m really struggling. ❤️
Been struggling with this for a while man, since like 2020, I recommend trying and getting some help as I am now trying to for the 4-5th time myself… 🙏🏾 I hope you’re having a good morning/day/night so far wherever you are.
remember that there's no such thing as thought crimes. I work with children and sometimes my intrusive thoughts take a turn and that reflex reaction of disgust or being upset a) shows me what my values really are and b) makes the intrusive thoughts come back time and again. It's really important to remember that what's in your head and stays in your head can't hurt other people. I really recommend an OCD-specific therapist if you can afford one. I was doing sessions through the app and it was really helpful before I couldn't afford it anymore. I hope it helps to know that you aren't alone and we're rooting for you
Serious trigger warning here for POCD and suicide. I have these thoughts, urges, and feelings that are terrifying. I don’t act on them and I believe I would never act on them but it feels so real and horrible. I don’t know how this started and I want to believe I am a good person but I’m just so scared that I’m going to do something terrible. And even just these thoughts scare me to my core and make me think, “oh what if I am a pedophile” even though I know I’m not, and I don’t know how to deal with them. When I can keep myself busy it gets easier to forget this stuff, but if I have downtime I can’t get it out of my head. I had a young girl, most likely middle school age, come into my work with her parents today and I was terrified of the idea that I could be attracted to her. I don’t believe I truly am but my thoughts get so aggressive that I don’t even know what to believe. I avoid a lot of things but sometimes you don’t have the option to avoid and it just gets things further stuck in my head and I end up fixating on awful things. I wake up with this stuff floating around my mind and I can’t get it to go away. I’ve even considered just ending it to all to make it easier on myself and to make sure that I never have the opportunity to act on these horrible thoughts and feelings. I don’t ever want to do these things and I know it may sound ridiculous, but the consequences of these actions I haven’t committed scare me as well such as people no longer trusting or loving me, prison, hurting someone else in any way, not being a good person, etc. I just can’t find anything that helps fix this. I have broken down many times due to this issue and I feel like it’ll never go away. I know killing my sled is not the answer and I know I will never act on any of this but the thoughts and feelings are so aggressive that I live in an almost constant state of fear of my own mind and body. I hate this. What did I do to deserve to suffer this way? Why me? Why can’t I just be a normal person with normal human thoughts and why of all forms of OCD did it’s have to be this one? I don’t know what to do. Someone please help me fix this before I lose hope.
I’m 23M and looking back at some past choices that concern me. I was a huge porn addict and just now started to realize how harmful it is to the brain. I don’t know if I have POCD or in denial. I’ve lost sleep, been late to work, been lacking in my health and responsibilities for almost 2 months. Feel like I don’t deserve to be around my best friends. Feel like I have to admit to someone. It’s the first thing I think about waking up and the last thing I think about going to sleep. My therapist tells me that I’m okay but I kinda don’t believe him. I feel like I’m not giving him all the information or that he doesn’t understand. He didn’t even knew what POCD was. After 4 sessions I didn’t really feel like it was working out so now I’m switching to someone hear. There’s a lot of details that I’m not including but only because I’m just scared. I feel like I have had something inside myself that I didn’t even know I was capable of and now it bothers me.
I’ve been struggling with POCD since I was 18 years old, I am now 22. It’s terrifying how quickly it switched from my ocd focusing on a fear of pregnancy, to magical thinking ocd, and then to POCD. I’ve been suffering with it so much so that I’ve convinced myself and have lost friends due to confession compulsions. I have major issues with ruminating, and it frequently goes hand in hand with my relationship OCD and my Suicidal thoughts OCD. (Worrying my partner will leave me because what if I am, and that I can’t take this anymore so I have to __) I often experience things like shame, guilt, grief, and intense emotional pain that manifests itself into nausea and heartburn and sometimes headaches. I’ve tried everything, so this app really is my last resort. I wish to find community here, to know that what I’m facing I’m not alone in my battles with. I know that I’m not, so why does my brain work so hard telling me I am? I love children, I always have. But I get so afraid of being near them. I want to get better. I want to be able to spend time with my family again.
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