When interacting with friends and family, I find myself almost constantly checking my thoughts to see if I am present with the people I love, or stuck in my head. The mental checking is what keeps me feeling distant and disconnected. Does anyone else experience this?
Yes. I sometimes amaze myself that I am following a conversation but also having this internal turmoil dialogue with myself. I notice when I’m tired I defiantly zone out more. I do two things that has helped. 1) I tell my thoughts, interesting concept let talk about this later as I am trying to listen to my friend or family that I love. 2) I will focus on my friends conversation by resaying to my brain what they are saying to me. 3) I try ask questions in the conversation to keep me engaged. It’s tough but those three things has helped form time to time
Yes, very often. The holidays were difficult tlfir me this way. So sad how OCD steals so much from us. Btw, your smile in your photo made my day! 🙂
Maybe instead of looking at it as checking, try to recognize you are not present, take a deep breath, and reengage. Breaking the cycle. OCD is like a washer that can’t finish a full cycle. It spins up to full speed, then at some point loses control, stops, and goes back to the rinse cycle. I found this out cause my washer did this all night without my knowledge. Who knows how much water I wasted. 🤣🤦🏻♂️
I’ve been diagnosed with OCD but I don’t have these intrusive thoughts like everyone else...so I’m convincing myself I don’t really have OCD I struggle I guess with rOCD (and more)...I guess I always check to see if a person texted me back. I blow up the persons phone until they respond. I use to have it really bad where I had so much anxiety if I didn’t do it and so much anxiety if I did. When guys leave me....I freak out and have damn near a heart attack from panicking so much. And once I get this thought in my head whether it’s “you should’ve said this” or “he probably lied to you when he said this” or whatever there’s this feeling in my body. It’s like an uncomfortable negative vibe and that thought becomes priority. I have to do it. I have to text them and it’s hard to think of anything else. And when I do it doesn’t stop so i shouldn’t give in but sometimes I do. And if I get over that thought later another might replace it and it starts again. Anybody else feel this way...?
General statement/question for anyone who can possibly relate: I've been struggling with ROCD for about 3 months now, the typical "do I actually love him", "what if I don't and I'm just leading him on", "why don't I feel connected any more, this must mean something is wrong with us", "planning the future makes me anxious because we might break up"...the list goes on. I've been especially struggling these past few days. I want a big future with this man and I've never second guessed it until all these intrusive thoughts have come into my life with a bang. I hate them. I feel so emotionally drained and incapable of enjoying the moments I have with him because I'm constantly thinking about the things missing. The fact I struggle to stay present. As we all probably know the age old reassurance after an anxiety inducing thought- I do this fairly often, googling my thoughts and why I'm feeling this way. I am so beyond exhausted. I know I want to marry this man and a future with him isn't scary, it's just significant moments that trigger me and suddenly I'm spiring into the OCD cycle again. I just want to know other people feel the same? I've been feeling so flat and disconnected from everyone, especially him which breaks my heart. I know I love him, so deeply - even writing that my brain said "are you sure you do?". I just want to see if other people experience ROCD similar to me. Thanks
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