- Date posted
- 1y
Horrible harm ocd thoughts
Harm ocd is getting more and more horrific each day. I'm close to having my period and my ocd symptoms are getting significantly worse as it always does this time of the month. I was just feeding my cat normally when suddenly I had intrusive thoughts in the form of commands saying: "ok now is your chance, k**l your cat, k**l him"... absolutely disgusting even typing that 💔 but what scares me the most is that I didn't get an extreme anxiety or fear response with the thought, and also I felt like the thought was intentional for some reason like it didn't feel intrusive when I replay the moment in my head. And also, at the time this thought happened I entered in some kind of trance for a second and that terrified me because my ocd interpreted it as if I was contemplating doing something. I was seated on the floor and he was in front of me whe this happened but of course I didn't touch him, I jut left with a horrible feeling. I love my cat, he is my best friend, I have him since he was a baby and I have never had suh thoughts with any of my pets before this ocd bullshit started. What I can't stop thinking about is why did it seem like the horrible thought was provoked and not intrusive? and why didn't I try to get rid of the thought or neutralize it with something else like I always do. Why does it feel like I want to do something horrible, when I know I would never do that and rather end myself than hurting anyone? Are command thoughts common?Can someone please respond to this post? 😭