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@Rebecca p Is it true you can get something called a arousal response? Or something like that but it doesn’t have to mean anything it’s like as soon as I think about something sexual my thoughts and brain associates that sexual thing with other things that I find interesting but NOT THIS THING. Do you follows

@jesuslovestay Hey

@Anonym You okay?

@jesuslovestay I dont know

@Anonym I am just now seeing this. Do you need to talk? Are you doing any better?

@Rebecca p So are you a girl or a guy?

@Rebecca p Ahhh thank you for reaching out and helping in a way. 😄

@Fwtx_joshua Well today was a bit hard. Annoying with all these ongoing thoughts about the same thing, haven’t eaten or anything. Try trip repress them but then again it’s not good and I just talked to someone so it feels a little better but I don’t know it’s just the whole thing you know.

@Anonym Sorry that you have to go through that I am happy to hear you at least feel a little bit better 😊

@Fwtx_joshua Thanks but I don’t know what’s real and what’s not you know because these thoughts makes me think I’m someone I’m not. Like I’d never wanna hurt anyone or anything but anyway it’s like “yes, if you didn’t want to why would you have these thoughts?”

@Anonym I have the same feeling sometimes when I start having thoughts I normally read the Bible in situations like that

@Fwtx_joshua Yeah, what ever work for that person. I just have a question that I’ve been like annoyed to ask. If I watch porn that is step based like for me it’s stepbrother and step dad. Does that mean I’m into incest because I don’t wanna do it with like my real ones, I don’t understand why I like that genre but it’s embarrassing and also triggering the intrusive thoughts like, It doesn’t have to be anything like that right?

@Anonym Well if you don’t wanna do it with your real ones I’d say that your not into incest you just like that porn category

@Fwtx_joshua Yeah I don’t, thinking about doing it with my real ones is uneasy thoughts but then the porn is something im into. Does that make any scene? I feel so ashamed

@Anonym Porn and real life are to different things you shouldn’t feel ashamed

@Fwtx_joshua Thanks, I’m sorry. I know it’s different, but in my head it dosent feel different it feels like that’s one world and the reality is another. If you follow

@Anonym Yeah that makes sense

@Fwtx_joshua Thanks

@Fwtx_joshua I hope you don’t feel uneasy or scared of me, I’m really not a bad person.

@Anonym Why would I be scared of you?

@Fwtx_joshua Because of my thoughts I just shared and the themes. People here in Sweden are different, ocd and these type of themes are not talked about as much, my last therapist said that If I think am a danger to myself well than maybe I should consider getting myself checked into the psychiatric ward.

@Anonym You don’t need to go to a psychiatrist ward you should get closer with god

@Fwtx_joshua Yeah thx

@Rebecca p Hey

@Rebecca p Tbh i dont know, its hard you know. If you check one of my recent posts it really frightens me.

@Rebecca p I’ll copy paste it for you “So today I watched the first season of games of thrones and as someone who isn’t diagnosed with ocd yet but have gotten from my therapist that I have ocd tendencies. In one episode there was a scene (sort) where the mothers bathed their kids and they were naked. You could see parts, and I got thoughts in my head like “you’re a pedo” “you’re liking this” and then I backed the scene couple of times just to make sure that I didn’t feel anything and I didn’t, but now I feel terrible for doing that and I my thoughts are like “you did like it, why would you rewind otherwise”. I feel lost and hopeless, IM INTO OLDER GUYS FOR CHRIST SAKES NOT A PEDO. I feel really sorry and bad and uneasy. Please tell me I’m not like this, the thoughts feels so realistic and they’re going on and on on the same thing.

@Rebecca p I’m sorry if it’s too much. I really am sorry