SOOCD Spike and identity

I’m getting married in November to the love of my life. I’ve been with him for over 5 years and I’m so excited but I’ve struggle sexual identity over the past and now with the wedding coming up, my intrusive thoughts and the constant theme of identity keep showing up in my head. From what I wear to how I act, I can’t just enjoy being myself. I know who I am but anytime my SOOCD comes up, it just wipes my identity completely out. I’m trying to ignore it and tell myself I don’t need to label myself as anything but I’m having constant intrusive dreams lately and it’s messing with my daily life

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 42w ago

I've been getting this. I've just learnt to accept that sexuality is a spectrum. I can appreciate a good looking bloke, but that doesn't mean I want to have sex with him lol

Username: AnonymousestiAnonymousesti

Date posted: 42w ago

Heyyy I saw that there was a triggering comment using religion to convince you that your marriage is the right decision which can make you think ( and this is SOOCD) that you’re forcing yourself for society and actually in denial. Just wanted to hope on here and tell you that your feelings are valid, that this is SOOCD and that it is usually the feelings it creates and that you’re gonna have a great wedding not because its the right thing to do because of religion but because its what’s right for you!! You love your partner and thats it.

Username: ZeldaKorr32ZeldaKorr32

Date posted: 42w ago

hey there, it sounds like you're going through a really tough time right now, especially with your wedding coming up - which should be one of the happiest times in your life. dealing with intrusive thoughts and identity issues on top of wedding planning sounds incredibly stressful. remember, it's okay to feel this way, and you're not alone in this struggle. 💜 by the way, have you heard about this new ai-powered ocd therapy tool called 'unstuck?' when i was dealing with similar issues, this free ai ocd therapy tool (unstuckmyocd.com/try) that my nocd therapist recommended to me was a game-changer. i think it'll be especially helpful for you because it provides personalized, step-by-step support for dealing with intrusive thoughts and identity concerns, just like an ocd therapist might. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have qs or just want to talk more! <3

Username: 🫠

Date posted: 1y ago

Total Panic

After having a peaceful couple weeks, I'm panicked and on edge. I'm getting married in a few weeks and I feel like I'm going to throw up. I feel like I *NEED* to know my sexuality. My current therapist doesn't think I have OCD, only that I have an attachment wound that needs healing. I don't really have parents anymore and only some of my family are attending the wedding. I suspect I have SO-OCD, because of the desperate need to know if I'm bisexual or secretly a lesbian. Ever since spiraling again, *every* thought goes back to questioning my sexuality, or the sexuality of others. I even get triggered by seeing hugging sisters. Before I thought I had SO-OCD, I was desperately trying to figure out if my partner was "the one". Now that I'm engaged the theme has changed and now I need to figure out my sexuality. I'm not looking for reassurance but I guess posting here gives some kind of relief. What can someone do in my situation? I feel like there's a timer to everything and I need to know ASAP. I don't want to start ERP right now. Can NOCD still help without doing ERP? Thank you, thank you x

Username: Purplecat24

Date posted: 49w ago

New to NOCD.

I think I've struggled with OCD all my life. I struggle with intrusive thoughts alot and recently I just broke down and fell into a spiral I can't get out of. I found out about relationship OCD and sexual orientation OCD and think I may have those. I had an intrusive thought a few months ago that what if i didn't love my fiance anymore and since then I can't shake the idea. Just the day before I told him how much I wanted him to be my husband and up until that point I didn't question my love for him. I don't understand how things can just shake me like that quickly. I know I love him deep down and anytime I get those feelings back my brain is like "you sure about that?" A week later I had a thought about what if I've been a lesbian this whole time and that I'll marry my fiance only to come out as a lesbian in the future. I've always been ok with being Bi, I considered myself 10-20% into women and 80-90% into men. I always had crushes on men and dreamt of finding the man for me one day. I also find women nice to look at but I don't know if it's admiration or actual sexual attraction. Either way I was find with identifying this way but now I'm so stressed that I've actually just wanted to be a lesbian this whole time and that I'm in denail and closeted. These thoughts are debilitating and now I can't look at women without being stressed or getting aroused.

Username: Mel17

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 31w ago

SOOCD and married

I love my husband very much. I feel at peace when I’m with him and I like to make him happy. But ever since the soocd kicked in, I can’t stop thinking about whether im an imposter. What if I’m actually not straight and this whole time I was just going by what society told me was right - liking guys. What if when I was little I forced myself to crush on guys because my dad is homophobic? I had a sexual dream with another girl and it was like if I could control my actions and thoughts in the dream and I didn’t stop myself. That scares me so much. I just don’t want to hurt my husband in the future if I ever figure out if my true self is not who I thought I was. Sometimes I don’t know if it’s truly ocd or denial but it consumes my thoughts alllll day!

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