I’ve been feeling weird lately like idk I question life and humans and I had this one weird thought of who am I and it turned into a panic n I have this like sensation in the back of my mind that I don’t know what life is and I feel like I’m losing it people look differently my loved ones look different I’m so scared like is this me losing my mind?
I had a similar crisis like 2 days ago. I was talking with a friend how life didn't made sense and how it was easier the life people had years ago (you know, society had a normal path everyone had sonner or later with house, marriage,kids,etc) and how we wished we lived there, it made me think that it could mean we wanted a sense of control over life, like if we had a to do list for life. We came to the conclusion everyone lives their own life, and normally, the postmodern society is making us feel like we aren't enough for anything. If we're not successful, If we're not married, if we are married, if you have a job, if you live in x city, etc. Nothing is ever enough and people feel like they have the right to judge EVERYTHING. Sometimes this affects our perception of life, in my experience, and you know what? It's OK. It only makes you consider what's really significant for you in life. So don't be scared of feeling lost, you don't need to have all answers figured out today. When you stop looking for an answer things will fall in place on their own eventually. Hope this helped :)
I’ve been feeling like this all my life, and it’s such a real question for me, that comes before all other questions, deep beyond everyday life and regular mundane goals. I’m talking about philosophical questions, about the essence of our existence… Who are we, what are we doing on this earth, WHY are we here, what is all this. When I was younger I would stare at my hands and think we are small creatures from planet Earth that is only a little dot in the waste black universe and it would hit me so hard and give me such an anxiety thinking about it. I’ve always have had a deep awareness about this, and it would follow me everywhere, every decision, move, it would always linger underneath and diminished every achievement or failure, and mess with my motivation. I can’t buy religion, and I don’t have any answers, it’s impossible to get them, nobody ever answered them and probably never will… and so we are condemned to live this life without any real answers… Camus explained this feeling well in a book The Myth of Sisyphus… However, I’m trying to perceive this life as a gift, and to believe in good, to be positive, that way existence is less painful and hard… learned it hard way.. and it seems right to do so. Any other way of thinking sends you spiraling in negativity and it’s all downhill from there. It takes learning healthy habits, facing our fears to overcome it, be brave and build ourselves up, it’s a long process but so worth it. Some questions will probably always stayed unanswered… learning to accept it and move on…
I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD, but I relate so much to what people here are going through. I used to think it was just anxiety, and I felt like I could handle that. But lately I’ve been spiraling—constantly afraid that what I’m feeling is something worse, like psychosis or losing control of my mind. I feel so detached and scared, and I just want peace again. I have anxiety doing the smallest things, like the thought of waking up everyday and even eating give me straight up panic. I am afraid all the time, it’s paralyzing. And a lot of people say someone with psychosis wouldn’t worry that they’re in it, but then I convince myself I’ve been in it this whole time, and haven’t known, and that maybe I’ve been doing weird stuff. Idk. I also get really scared of labels. Even the idea of OCD makes me feel like I’ll never get better or like I’ll be stuck like this forever. I just want to be okay. If anyone has felt this way—confused, overwhelmed, or scared of what’s happening in their mind—I’d really appreciate any support or encouragement.
Lately I just feel like I’m on the verge of losing it and I don’t know why. I feel so uncomfortable in my own body. Physically and mentally. Not due to insecurity but just that something isn’t right… I never feel good, I’m always fatigued, my head hurts all the time, but my blood work comes back fine so doctor’s will do nothing. I have anxiety and panic attacks and recently I guess depression since I’m always down. I have relationship OCD so my partner deals with me not being sure of him constantly and it breaks my heart. I don’t want to leave him because he’s great but half the time my brain is telling me he isn’t the one. I keep counting as well, constantly counting every letter in every word and every word in every sentence… it just feels like I’m gonna go insane one of these days and I’m scared. When I talk to someone about this, they have no clue what to tell me or how to help. Am I alone in feeling this way??
Idk how to caption it other than that. My whole life I’ve had an issue with memory hoarding and the upside has been that I have a really vivid memories of my childhood and I get to remember my best days, the main downside has always been I have a lot of childhood trauma too and I remember every detail meticulously like I can relive and reanalyze them which has caused issues in my healing. However as much pain as it is to remember bad things so well it’s always been a bit of a comfort bc at least I know for sure even if other people don’t know or don’t believe. But as of lately I I’ve been forgetting things, whether it’s what time I’m supposed to work (and I have compulsions when checking my work schedule bc I’m always scared of reading it wrong so I usually open it up read it close it and open it up again 2-3 times so I usually KNOW) or what day it is, or just small things that I don’t remember saying or doing that other people swear on. I just have always felt like I know at the very least I know and lately I don’t and I’m so scared of going crazy and losing myself like literally my biggest fear. So I hate this. Today is Friday I was convinced yesterday was Friday and I woke up today for my Saturday shift completely convinced today was Saturday. I hate being wrong and making those small mistakes because it’s terrifying to think about what else I’m remembering wrong, or what else do I not “know” that isn’t actually the truth? I’m just so scared of losing myself mind. Has anyone ever experienced anything like this?
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