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Hi, thank you for sharing that. Sounds like you wanted to expose yourself to something that unsettles you. Congrats to that! I know these kind of thougths from my own experience with OCD. Kudos to you for facing those head on. What helped me when I exposed myself to unsettling things was to create room for that. Meaning, that I entered that situation, stayed in that situation and rated my unsettling on a scale from 1-10 until I saw it decreasing again. After that, I slowly exited that situation again, often feeling very good. That worked for me but expose yourself just the way you need/want to! Just be kind and forgiving to yourself, I think that is always the most important thing. Greetings from Germany