intrusive thoughts have gotten kinda bad again after a few months of control. i think i might spiral over something again, how do i prevent it? i canāt go through this again i wonāt make itš
take a shot every time i say āagainā lol
Iām sorry youāre feeling this way šmine have been pretty bad the last couple of weeks due to life stressors. At least I think. I donāt even know anymore. But you got this! Are you seeing a therapist?
@Drew92 iām sorry yours are bad too :( iām always here if u need to talk, weāre in this together! also no i donāt have a therapist unfortunately
How many times do you have intrusive thoughts? Is it weekly? Daily? Hourly? Minutes at a time? Im new on here and Im looking to talk to others that have intrusive thoughts. My IT happen frequently throughout the day. I am not on medication so I rely on my rituals. Prayers and words. I say the word LIE in my head and outloud. This works for a while. But the thoughts dont go away. They slow down maybe. Sometimes I say "Go away" and they do go away. For a few minutes. I cant believe Ive been doing this for so many years. I hope you know that you are not alone. At the very least just know you're not the only one. I do hope we can both find help.
@BioplasmaCA i am always here to talk if u need anything! ā¤ļø iām sorry youāre going through the same thing, it truly is awful. my intrusive thoughts are pretty much 24/7, iād be lucky if i get an hour without them. one thing that definitely helped me over time was letting go of my rituals like the ones you described. itās soo hard but eventually it makes the thoughts have less of a weight to them! :)
Iām having a very bad evening with my intrusive thoughts. I was doing really good dealing with them but tonight one hit me hard. Iāve been having a lot of different intrusive thoughts but Iāll have one occasionally about hurting my mom or my dog who I love and theyāre the only family I have in my life. Theyāre my world. I was helping my mom put away the dishes and I had the big kitchen knife in my hand and my intrusive thought was you could stab your mom. And then my brain said I had a twitch in my hand and that meant I wanted to do it. Let me just say that I wouldnāt hurt a fly. I actually caught a fly in a glass and put it outside instead of killing it this evening before this intrusive thought happened. Iām such a gentle and compassionate and caring person and these thoughts instantly cause me to have a panic attack. And I have no one to talk to them about. I know theyāre hard for my mom to hear and I donāt want to be any more of a burden than I already am. I do desperately want to tell her and have her reassure me that Iām not crazy or a psycho. Then my thoughts wander to if your hand did flinch could you be a psychopath. Is hurting someone in you. I know itās not but I feel like my mind is out to get me and hurt me. Iām working so hard and I thought I was doing so good but I need to know why I have these thoughts. Theyāre not ok. I need someone to help me make sense of why. I know we arenāt supposed to ruminate but I shouldnāt have thoughts like this about people I love and care about the most in the world.
This might contain triggering content, but I'm also wondering if others have dealt with this similar thought, and if so, how to deal with it? Overall, I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm able to eat again, which I hadn't been able to do because of how much anxiety I'd been experiencing. I'm spending time around loved ones and not just rotting in my room, and I've been able to wake up without immediately being bombarded by intrusive thoughts. When things first got really bad, I'd wake my mom up every night for reassurance, but I haven't done that in a while either. I'm really proud of myself, but there's still this nagging thought in my mind... While looking through others posts on here, hoping to find advice that'd fit my situation, I ended up making things worse. Someone mentioned how they had a fear that they'd purposely search for illegal content (related to POCD). I panicked, and "what ifs" flooded my thoughts. "What if the intrusive thoughts affect who I am as a person, and I do that?" I'm terrified that I'll search for those things, which I know means I wouldn't do it. But then, another person on here said they'd actually looked for those things, and that freaked me out even more. Does that mean it's possible for that to happen to me? I don't want to do that, but I keep having intrusive thoughts surrounding it. I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm just... stuck. I don't know what to do. I've spoken with other people who have the same fears, but how do I manage this? It's not something I've even thought about before seeing those posts. I've been practicing accepting the uncertainty, but I'm really struggling with this one. I hate this. This morning, I woke up, and the intrusive thoughts were back. It's just disheartening.
I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? š
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