I’m afraid of health issues

Almost a year ago I was diagnosed with Leukemia. I have been in remission since August. But now I am afraid of everything health wise and convinced something is wrong with my heart. I went to a cardiologist and he had me wear a heart monitor for 2 weeks. I just took it off today and won’t get results for another week at least. I still have to do chemo once a month for another four months. But I’m obsessively checking my pulse, I’m constantly worried and I’m convinced that there’s something wrong with my heart and that I will die before anyone can help me. I’m terrified all the time. It’s debilitating. I’m seeing two therapists and I’m medicated and nothing seems to help. I feel crazy and that no one is taking me seriously because they think it’s all just health related anxiety. I don’t know what to do anymore. I just want to live my life and be happy that my cancer is in remission but I can’t because of this never ending fear. I’m hoping to find some help here, or at least find someone that can relate.

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

I’m really happy to hear you are in remission!🎉 I can relate to you on being overly concerned with health issues. I call it ‘health anxiety’ and am constantly checking my apple watch to look at my heart rate. Since you just took the heart rate monitor off and won’t get results until next week, there isn’t anything you can do right now. Sometimes that’s scary because we (people with OCD) feel the need to be in control all the time. But it’s important to remember that we are only human and can’t fix everything. Another recommendation for you is maybe considering switching therapists. I’m in the middle of switching right now because my other one wasn’t necessarily giving me the tools I need. You will find your happiness again. I hope this helps and congratulations on remission :)

Yecknom

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Thank you. I really appreciate the response. And yes, it’s hard not being in control. And having to wait for results, etc…my therapists have taught me coping mechanisms and stuff, and they do help sometimes in the moment, but then a little while later it just comes back. I’m hoping that the tests will be ok, or if not it won’t be a huge issue and that will suppress some of this fear. I’m not afraid of the cancer because I know for now it’s in remission and I’m hoping it stays that way, but I’m worried about the other things…and how the chemo affected my body. Anyway, thanks again for the reply. Just hoping for the best, I guess that’s all I can do right now.

carol.xxx

Date posted: 23w

Health anxiety please help x

Hey friends… I am in a really low place regarding my health anxiety. I am absolutely terrified of cancer. Im only 17 years old and im worrying more about health then living my life its very draining. At the moment I have a very chesty cough which has lasted around two weeks and a runny nose and just full sinuses. I woke up from my sleep tonight and woke up completely wet in sweat and itchy. I am terrified in case ive got cancer. I get so so scared It genuinely is not only affecting me but everyone else around me im pulling them down too. 💔 I am UK based and recently got a job and even then its all I can think about. Im crying my eyes out scared ☹️ To anyone else going through this your not alone and its so consuming. ❤️‍🩹

Cooki_brooki23

Date posted: 14w

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I have gotten maybe about 8 EKG’s within the lest 2 years? I’ve also gotten an echo done, and I got a heart monitor to track my heart over the course of maybe 2 weeks, back last year. Even though I have been to the emergency room so many times because of panic attacks that I thought were heart attacks, and went with a Cardiologist I still obsess and worry. I always think that I am going to develop some kind of heart problem after getting the tests done. Like if they’re just suddenly going to appear/my heart will suddenly have an issue. I especially get nervous when the pain is in the center of my chest + I get a tight feeling like I have pressure on my chest and can’t breathe completely. Please someone share their experience of how they controlled their health anxiety, especially if it’s related to this.

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Date posted: 4w

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