Today was so nice, I had a girl who I’ve like for so long at my house today and she was hugging me and laid in bed with me. My heart was racing everytime she laid with me. Life didn’t feel real. She made me hard every time she was on me. But then when she left I got the scared thought that what if I don’t really love her and what if I’m gay and bring a guy home one day. What does this mean.
Just a intrusive thought you know you like this girl and that is what matters.
Your ocd has tried to ruin a really good day you have had!
Had a similar situation happen today, I was out on a date with a girl at a board game cafe and despite it going well my mind just started going “are you actually interested in this? Is this just a cover up? Would you rather be here with a guy?” Fucking sucks. And same when I’ve been talking to girls over dating apps. There’s times where I’m having a fun convo with someone or I’ll match with a girl who’s out of my league and get excited about it, for my mind to flip and go “nah your actually gay you like me “ I hate this so much
Hey there! It sounds like you had a really special day that turned a bit confusing with those sudden thoughts. It's pretty common for our brains to throw us curveballs, especially during big moments or changes. 🧠💭 I'm not an expert on OCD, especially with this theme, but I want to share some resources that might help you navigate these feelings better. One resource that I've found helpful is the OCD stories podcast. It covers a wide range of topics and personal stories that could provide some insights or comfort. Also, I recently started using this app called "unstuck OCD therapy tools" after my NOCD therapist recommended it to me. It's pretty cool because it offers AI-personalized guidance and exercises for moments just like this. Might be worth checking out!
This post will be for people 18+ and it is a topic on sexual attraction, if you are comfortable you can read but it’s completely up to you. I know I’m not the only woman that watches lesbian love for pleasure as we are all humans and our hormones go up. I’ve been watching lesbian love for years now (about 3 years) and in most of that time, not once did I question my sexuality until someone asked me a question that triggered my overthinking. Today after watching that, I was asking myself questions like what it would feel like to do this with a woman? How would it feel like to be with one? And because these thoughts came to my mind I freaked out because I keep thinking that I like females but never in my life and even till this day have I ever fallen in love with a women or even thought about marrying a women one day. I always want to have a husband one day and at least have a kid or two. But lately all this questioning has me confused to the point where I question if I’m bi or lesbian and if I even have SOOCD or if it’s generally just me tryna figure out my sexuality or if I’m just in denial. I am also talking to a man romantically and whenever I’m around him I feel happy and I’m always excited to talk to him and he also makes my heart flutter and my body burn for him. But because of these recent thoughts I’ve been having, it just confuses me and adds some stress. Any tips for how I can go about this?
I’m so scared all the time that maybe i am just in denial. The voice started one day and it never leeft. Whenn i was at my happiest in my relationship all i could hear was a voice being like ur a lesbian, u don’t even like men, everything is fake, nothing was real u just didn’t know it. Then we broke up and all the voices went away and i was devastated because i missed him. Fast forward 2 years we made it work again and i was so happy and now i’m happy the voices are back. But when i’m with him they go away a little, i naturally gravitate toward touching him and being around him and being turned on but then when i’m alone my head is like none of it was real, you hated it, you’re a lesbian, you only like women, you’re. not attracted to men anymore. Is this normal for SOCD? or am i just in denial? i’ve only ever dated men, and i’ve really loved my partners, being intimidate has never been hard. I don’t know what to do. It’s all i think about all day when i’m alone.
I dont have ocd. I really dont. It feels like im actually a lesbian. I dont feel anything for guys. I dont know how to describe my feelings. It feels like i cant escape my body or my mind. I feel stuck. It feels real. It must be real. But i cant imagine that its real. But it feels so real like im actually a lesbian. I dont want to be. Today i had urges to come out. I feel depressed. I dont wanna live. I cant escape. I just have to accept that im a lesbian.
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