Feeling like there’s no joy

I’ve been feeling depressed lately, because I’ve gone down a rabbit hole thinking about how it seems like everything is connected or underpinned by something unjust or inhumane. For example, the clothes we wear may have been made by people in unsafe working conditions, the animals we eat may have suffered in cages, the child actors from the shows we watch aren’t always protected and taken care of, and the materials from our phones were produced by oppressed children in the Congo. It just seems like there is something wrong with everything and it’s hard for me to see the good. I feel complicit in these unjust systems. I see people saying “boycott this” and “boycott that”, because money talks. But honestly I don’t want to boycott certain things. Nor do I want to become vegan. Then I feel guilty, like this makes me a bad person. It feels so hard to be a good person in this world. It feels impossible to be a good follower of Christ. Like what’s the point? How do you find joy when there is so much wrong with everything? Almost everything I love has lost its joy and the things I used to like doing, reading and writing and film, now feel wrong. I’ve become obsessed with being moral and it’s making me miserable.

Username: ZoeGirl1415 ZoeGirl1415

Date posted: 40w ago

You sound just like me. I think this is where we have to be honest with God and rest in his grace. Remember, even Elijah felt this way and the Lord provided for him. God knows our hearts. He is patient and slow to anger. He understands when we hit valley, and we struggle to find joy. One thing that helps me get through these moments is to find one tiny silverlining each day, something that was a good thing. Just one little sliver of silverlining. It can be a good parking spot or a flower you saw. Just find one bright part of each day no matter how small. I like to write them down or text them to myself. It's something small, but I hope it helps.

Username: ATLAfan164ATLAfan164

Date posted: 40w ago

@ZoeGirl1415 Thank you

Username: LilliVanillieLilliVanillie

Date posted: 40w ago

I totally understand! It sounds like your a over-thinker like I am! Something I’ve realized is how people use free will for bad, it is disturbing, especially knowing in some situations you can’t do much. I think what helps me is realizing how good God is, and knowing what evil things around us are going in, is not who he is, or what he wants. My advice, from what I’m getting from your message, is that the devil has found a weak spot, and is using it to get to you! He wants to disrupt your peace! I would pray and rebuke satan, and remember when you pray or talk to God, it isn’t just between you two, satan is also listening if that makes sense. Pray for peace and rebuke satan. Please let me know if you have any question!

Username: hestia

Date posted: 5y ago

Just got off the phone with my after hours therapy center. I’m trying not to ruminate or seek reassurance, but even after I spoke with the therapist I can’t help but worry that I’m not just or moral enough. I asked if I should turn myself in, and they said no. I wish I could enjoy the holidays but I’m by myself right now and I’m going through a familiar thought process of the world would be a better place if I had been a different person. I’ve been feeling depressed and thinking about different ways in which I’m inadequate and incompetent. I can’t seem to figure out how I’m actually worthwhile. I don’t know if I’ll ever get out of this, my mental illnesses and my current failures at my work and internship. I’m sorry this all sounds dark and I don’t feel like being drastic. Rather I just feel extremely stuck. Kind of like, oh shoot I’m not someone anyone likes and I’m unfortunately a waste of oxygen.

Username: BeachedMermaid

Date posted: 3y ago

I think this is my religion/existential OCD? I think I’m having an identity crisis because I feel like I know who I am. What I mean is that I place my identity in my values, and my passions. But I feel so incredibly guilty about that. Because everyone says to live through Christ. I’m having lots of doubts. Maybe I’ve made everything up. If I want to be a real Christian then I need to place my identity in only Christ, and to me I suppose that means to make religion the most important part of life. If I’m honest, I don’t think I can put God first. My passions and purpose seem to go before Him, even though I know that’s wrong. Or is it. I don’t know. I’m having an existential crisis at 17 because I’ve been through the ringer. I’m just so confused. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to put my worth in Christ. And I feel like an awful person for that.

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Username: rileysheppard06

Date posted: 1y ago

Always feeling guilty or condemned

I’m so exhausted. I feel like everything I do now is a sin and I can’t enjoy myself because of my overthinking. Its either overthinking a song or a movie, I feel like I’m restless. In the Bible I know it says that if you can’t do something without faith and you doubt, you should refrain from doing it. But I doubt every SINGLE thing I do so i feel trapped. A week ago I was completely fine with horror movies and my conscience let me watch them with no problem( not excessively Gore ones). Then I saw someone on tiktok saying that Christian’s shouldn’t watch horror movies of any kind. Even though I don’t believe that and I feel like we have our own convictions, now all of a sudden I’m over thinking and feeling uneasy about EVERYTHING because of what one person said. Please let me know if any of you been through something similar and how did you get through with it :(

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