I can’t seem to get a break, every day it’s something new the dumbest things ever but they feel so big to me. I’m so tired of doing this I can’t do it any longer I just cried because how much I hate my. I’m tired of living at the sink having major anxiety for almost no reason and if I try to fight it I just get more anxiety like well I touched my phone now I gotta wash my phone, it’s on my sheets, my clothes. I take super long showers i guess what I’m here for is help how can I help this what can I do to ease the anxiety like idk when I should or shouldn’t wash my hands anymore like my dog peed in the bathroom and got it on her paws then splash and got it in my mouth my clothes she walked around the house with paws full of pee I’m tired of cleaning everything and myself all the time can someone give me some advice

Please go seek help. In the meantime try to do some self-induced exposure therapy. What are the least triggering triggers you have? Start there. I do this. I don’t ever go all the way without doing some kind of compulsion after but I improve with how long I can go without doing the compulsion. It started with a mere 10 seconds. Now I’m up to 3 hours. 3 hours is dang good to not act on an obsession.

I would start looking for an ocd therapist, it will definitely help

Is there some kind of program they are free or affordable cuz my mom is a single mom And can barely afford to pay the bills, I’m 17 by the way almost 18 and ik it’s like get a job then but I help my mom with watching my sister and picking her up every I literally walk 4 miles every so I kinda feel stuck plus my mom is the type of mom that thinks you just need to stop like just stop doing it stop worrying and I kinda do exposure therapy like rn I’m going on like 2 hours of not washing my hands although ik im just gunna do it eventually cuz I can’t not do it but it also adds to my anxiety cuz now I touched my phone now it’s on my phone and my charger and I don’t want it on my bed

Where do you live? Like, don’t be specific. Just the country or state.

California

Okay. So for ppl who have low income in California there are health coverages that don’t charge. Like Medicare and medical and they’re covered.

My friend is on it and he goes to therapy and doesn’t pay a dime.