confused writer
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How funny is the transition
From health OCD TO HARM OCD For a year I was running to the ER for ANYTHING and now I feel like i kinda want to die 🤣 Like WHERE IS ME?
LillyXLillyX
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I can relate to this so much😂I used to be so paranoid about dying but now I’ve developed POCD I’m like you know what maybe it wouldn’t be that bad🙃at least we can laugh about it I suppose lol.
confused writerconfused writer
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@LillyX Exactly 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 good to hear I’m not the only one You’ll be ok!!!!
SpecklesSpeckles
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Me too... health and back to the most dreaded one. The same! Now I'm like oh who cares it'll take me away from this agony. Don't know what this is doing to me anymore. Was suppose to see a cardiologist and canceled bc I'm more anxious of this theme than my health now. This really sucks!! Did ERP today and just got outta bed. Feel worse 😔
SpecklesSpeckles
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@confused writer Feel like you don't even know who you are anymore.
SpecklesSpeckles
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@confused writer I need to laugh at like you guys!! I did one time before I made fun of it and it did help
NotSoNewb82NotSoNewb82
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An attack of harm OCD was the first time people started relating my illness with being OCD.
confused writerconfused writer
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@NotSoNewb82 What do you mean?
NotSoNewb82NotSoNewb82
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@confused writer I was misdiagnosed at 26 and only now at 41 have I been diagnosed with OCD. That harm attack was bad. I thought I was going to stab myself and I shut myself in my room. The guys in a FB group started talking about their OCD which I suppose I thought was weird at the time.
Catlove9Catlove9
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@NotSoNewb82 Mine started randomly during a panic attack one time. It was out of left field.
confused writerconfused writer
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@NotSoNewb82 Yes it feels so real. SO SO SO REAL.
brittd418brittd418
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Love when my ocd picks different themes , it’s like hey what do you think about his one I’m over scaring you about that thing haha
confused writerconfused writer
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@brittc41886 Yes I hate it 🤦🏻♀️
alissaaalissaa
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If it’s harm OCD (and not and genuine desire to harm yourself), then truthfully, it makes sense. With health OCD you value your health. With self-directed harm OCD, it’s also attacking the fact that you value your health, except rather than physical health it’s your mental health. OCD themes don’t need to make sense, but if you think about it, it’s still focusing on your health just in a different sense. I have experience with both as well. Good luck friend.
confused writerconfused writer
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@alissaa Yes but I’m so scared it’s a genuine desire. SO SCARED.
alissaaalissaa
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@confused writer I totally understand and I’m sorry if that was triggering for you to read. It can feel so very real and the questioning of yourself and how you feel can take up so much of your time and energy. My old therapist would always remind me that there is a difference between thoughts and having a plan. Doing ERP scripts of the worst case scenario surrounding the fear are what helped me the most. But in the beginning, even writing out or reading the word “suicide” was triggering enough. Start small and build up to it. Practice using non-engagement responses if you notice yourself using compulsions like ruminating or questioning. It is so much easier said than done but recovery from this theme (or any other) is very possible and you won’t always feel this scared and distressed. It’s always a good day to do hard things. ERP is hard but effective. 🫶🏻
confused writerconfused writer
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@alissaa Thank you sm❤️ I hope it will get better soon..
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