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I went through this too, and my experience is similar. And I'm also a girl. I didn't know pOCD had a name at the time. I really thought that something was wrong with me and I almost killed myself. Something that has brought me a lot of peace is that it does have a name and that the reason it brings so much distress is because it goes against who I am. All those negative beliefs I feel about myself are false. It's the OCD telling me that. The world is better with you in it! You are not alone and you are not a terrible person.
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What you’re describing sounds a lot more like OCD than any evidence of being a bad person. It reminds me of how I felt when I was in the throes of it. I know this probably isn’t what you want to hear, but are you doing therapy? I’ve never been able to solve anything without ERP, and unfortunately looking for support online can actually make things worse in the long run. But it’s totally worth it. My life is so much better than it was a year ago. It will get better. I promise.
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@FearAndLoathing I use to have therapy on here but my insurance ran out:( do u guys experience groinal responses? those make me so scared and worried the most and weird :;
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@co140 im scared it means something
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@co140 Yes I experience them. Remember what you learned in therapy. Maybe try looking up “OCD radical acceptance” on YouTube.
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Like I'm not even scared I feel numb and ever since that night I've completely went down hill Idk what to do the feeling i felt this time genuily felt like i liked it and i didnt even have anxiety at that moment and now I'm panicking I really hope this is still OCD like I'm sorry if I'm still asking for reassurance but im really worried like it felt good in that moment I don't understand what's going on like I hope it was a false feeling and not something real.....like this has happened before but Idk 😭😭😭😭 I really don't know what to I don't want to turn into a p word I don't this I've been sleeping all day I still do compulsions a little to get rid of the thoughts but I've been getting sexual thoughts too and I don't want them but I feel like I do I don't understand I though I was getting better but I guess every time I get better everything gets worse..
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im so scared that this is just denial and that im actuall gay. idk what to do anymore i need help. its just constant anxiety in my chest and i hate it. is there anything i can do to help?
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I believe I have ROCD — at least, that’s what many people here have told me based on what I’ve shared — and I really need help, because I feel like I’m falling apart. I don’t know what I feel anymore. I don’t know what’s real. My thoughts come as loud, cold statements — not questions. They say things like: “Nothing is the same.” “You don’t love him.” “You’re just staying because you’re used to him.” And even though I know I’m supposed to let the thoughts pass and not engage with them — I can’t. I get stuck in them. I try to find answers, I ruminate, I check, I cry, I panic. Everyone says “love isn’t just a feeling” — and I know that. But… I still want to feel something. I want to feel warmth, or connection, or even just peace. It’s been so long since I felt anything like that. Now everything just feels empty or terrifying or cold. My brain only gives me negative interpretations. No memory brings me comfort anymore. Nothing feels like it used to. And the worst part is — it all feels true. Sometimes I think: “What if I’m just denying the truth?” “What if I’ve finally realized that I don’t love him, and I just don’t want to admit it?” This feels like the worst version of myself. I’m so confused and scared and tired. Even therapy didn’t help — my therapist said things that made it worse, and now I don’t know who or what to believe anymore. I just want help. I want to know how to face ROCD — if that’s what this really is. I want to believe I can feel love again. I don’t want to lose myself in this forever. Has anyone else felt like this? How did you start to get better? i cant even remember past good memories with him, my head tells me that i didnt love him and i was just “excited “ to have someone. We have 2 years together and i have been dealing with this for a year and a half.
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