Does anyone ever have really good days where you think all these thoughts were just silly and then suddenly everything hits you and you can't escape? Do you also question whether it's really OCD or not?
First of yes there are sometimes I go wow did I really spiral over this lol I know that's that who I am. But ocd will always find a way to keep us stuck. And yes I think all ocd suffers have the "what if it's not ocd" thoughts it's because of ocd Ocd is the doubting disorder
Yes!! That’s all of us here ! Hahaha not making fun! But I struggle with socd rocd and harm ocd, mostly soocd and rocd, majority of the times I’ll have my storm, I’ll get through it and it’s calm and I feel myself and great again, I’ll look back and either laugh at the thoughts and spiral I was just in, or completely just forget about what I was spiraling over, but when I look back at the spiral and I’m feeling perfectly fine and normal again I feel like everything I just obsessed about was wrong and a liar , and then I’ll feel fine again for a good min, and then back into a spiral , even though I know I suffer from ocd, I still get mad at myself for becoming stuck or believing in said obsessive thoughts and doubts , even though I know my true self isn’t want my mind tells me. OCD sucks !
yes! and i feel it comes back stronger every time :/
@m6 But keep in mind, it also always goes away ! No matter the journey of stormy seas, there’s always the journey of calming sky’s after ! Never give up ! You’re not alone !
@Iamtheonewhooverthinks Thank you, I really needed to hear this 🫶🏻
@m6 No problem at all! Not being negative here, but ocd will never leave us, we just find a better way to live with it, with growth and maturity it gets better ! You manage it better, there will be days there’s world war 3 going on upstairs , but it still won’t be as badly as when you first were diagnosed or feeling said feelings, that’s my option at least , I’ve had ocd for a very long time, and I look back in my younger years and see it’s not as badly as it used to be, I still have bad moments, but nothing compares it to when I was younger
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And to add onto what I just said, literally have been obsessing and stuck in thought and urges and ideas of I don’t love my fiance , two weeks ago I purposed, she knows I suffer , she’s been the best woman to ever walk into my life , she knows all of my ocd subtypes and has still been there for me , I fell in love with her , but I always get doubts I don’t, or she doesn’t love me, it sucks, but anyways I purposed cause I’ve felt it throughout my whole soul and body over the year and a half with her how much I love her , but two weeks after I purposed I randomly got thoughts and ideas and urges she’s not the one, doubting my love for her questioning it, it’s detrimental and hurts me and scares me terribly, but I know myself and she does to, but literally after I posted my Comment those said thoughts went away lol, now they’ll probably come back, but I’m telling you cause it’s just so funny how ocd works, you can be stuck one min and then fine the next . It takes time but then you’re fine again .
@Iamtheonewhooverthinks Thank you for sharing, you got this!!
I meant to put that's not who I am lol
Haha I figured :p
The past month or so I have been in and out of OCD spirals. I’ll have a couple days of spiraling and then a couple days of being better. Then a couple days spiraling and then a couple days doing better. Today is one of those days where I can feel the anxiety under the surface and where I am monitoring it to see/keep it in check. Yesterday I was good, I had good dialogue in my mind, I was content with making mistakes in the past, but being a better human and person these days going forward. I can feel the ebb and flow of it today where the anxiety spikes, my internal dialogue say “am I going to freak out”, “confess this”, “say that”, “don’t say that”, “I’m a bad person”, “I’m a good person that is learning and growing every day” etc etc. Then the anxiety comes down, my mind feels clearer, less noisy and less physical feeling, and I feel like I don’t care about the OCD and me as much. Just been feeling the ebbs and flows of OCD over the course of months and days, and even within the day itself.
Hello. I joined this app because I realised my experiences might be due to OCD. I often have these really disgusting and terrible pictures of me becoming someone horrible, doing horrible things to others. These ideas really disturb me, and often in my mind, and physically sometimes, I literally scream quitely to myself, "Shut up!" Over and over until the image goes away, but unless I distract myself with something else immediately after, it comes back and gets worse. I also end up looking back on these thoughts, and being terrified that maybe I am thinking of this because it is what I truly want, so I end up desperately trying to filter my thoughts, and this ends up carrying into something like SO-OCD, even though I am confident that I am a straight male, and there is no evidence that I am not, I keep trying to prove to myself that I am straight to make the thought go away. I also get the fear that after I maybe do something and say something I know I maybe shouldn't have to someone, that when they leave, or I can't find them for a bit, they have gone to commit suicide. Likewise, I also get intrusive thoughts of me killing myself, even though I have no desire to, and this scares me a lot as well. I used to occasionally get these thoughts in chunks like maybe for 2 weeks and then I wouldn't for another few weeks, but they have gotten worse and more frequent this past semester. They are still not bad enough to actively effect my daily life and routine, but they definitely come frequently enough to distract me, disrupt what I'm doing and make me take a break, and it has dramatically effected my mood and mental state lately. Do you guys recommend any ways to deal with this, is this really severe enough to even call OCD? Would love to hear, thanks! ❤️
Can ocd convince you momentarily you want your intrusive thoughts only to snap out of it
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