Does anyone ever have really good days where you think all these thoughts were just silly and then suddenly everything hits you and you can't escape? Do you also question whether it's really OCD or not?
First of yes there are sometimes I go wow did I really spiral over this lol I know that's that who I am. But ocd will always find a way to keep us stuck. And yes I think all ocd suffers have the "what if it's not ocd" thoughts it's because of ocd Ocd is the doubting disorder
Yes!! That’s all of us here ! Hahaha not making fun! But I struggle with socd rocd and harm ocd, mostly soocd and rocd, majority of the times I’ll have my storm, I’ll get through it and it’s calm and I feel myself and great again, I’ll look back and either laugh at the thoughts and spiral I was just in, or completely just forget about what I was spiraling over, but when I look back at the spiral and I’m feeling perfectly fine and normal again I feel like everything I just obsessed about was wrong and a liar , and then I’ll feel fine again for a good min, and then back into a spiral , even though I know I suffer from ocd, I still get mad at myself for becoming stuck or believing in said obsessive thoughts and doubts , even though I know my true self isn’t want my mind tells me. OCD sucks !
yes! and i feel it comes back stronger every time :/
@m6 But keep in mind, it also always goes away ! No matter the journey of stormy seas, there’s always the journey of calming sky’s after ! Never give up ! You’re not alone !
@Iamtheonewhooverthinks Thank you, I really needed to hear this 🫶🏻
@m6 No problem at all! Not being negative here, but ocd will never leave us, we just find a better way to live with it, with growth and maturity it gets better ! You manage it better, there will be days there’s world war 3 going on upstairs , but it still won’t be as badly as when you first were diagnosed or feeling said feelings, that’s my option at least , I’ve had ocd for a very long time, and I look back in my younger years and see it’s not as badly as it used to be, I still have bad moments, but nothing compares it to when I was younger
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And to add onto what I just said, literally have been obsessing and stuck in thought and urges and ideas of I don’t love my fiance , two weeks ago I purposed, she knows I suffer , she’s been the best woman to ever walk into my life , she knows all of my ocd subtypes and has still been there for me , I fell in love with her , but I always get doubts I don’t, or she doesn’t love me, it sucks, but anyways I purposed cause I’ve felt it throughout my whole soul and body over the year and a half with her how much I love her , but two weeks after I purposed I randomly got thoughts and ideas and urges she’s not the one, doubting my love for her questioning it, it’s detrimental and hurts me and scares me terribly, but I know myself and she does to, but literally after I posted my Comment those said thoughts went away lol, now they’ll probably come back, but I’m telling you cause it’s just so funny how ocd works, you can be stuck one min and then fine the next . It takes time but then you’re fine again .
@Iamtheonewhooverthinks Thank you for sharing, you got this!!
I meant to put that's not who I am lol
Haha I figured :p
Whenever anyone starts to feel like their thoughts are less triggering or they feel a moment of happiness/ relief OCD tells you that you want the thoughts back or you actually like having the thoughts and maybe thats just the person I really am? I feel like im going insane😢
I was diagnosed with OCD around the age of 6, subtype- contamination primarily. It calmed down as I got older and I assumed it had gone away, but also didn’t realize it can show up in other ways, and it still had been effecting me which I know now. I’m not 31 and I’ve been in therapy for a year and it’s helped a lot, although I sometimes get thoughts that what if some of the stuff I’m dealing with isn’t ocd and I’m exaggerating. I feel like thoughts will feel sticky and I’ll do certain compulsions but then the thought eventually vanishes if I do it a few times which makes me think maybe it’s not OCD since other people/friends I know would probably do the exact same thing. Not sure if I’m making sense, but I guess my question is if that thought comes up with anyone else? Just being unsure if something you’re doing actually is ocd or not.
The past month or so I have been in and out of OCD spirals. I’ll have a couple days of spiraling and then a couple days of being better. Then a couple days spiraling and then a couple days doing better. Today is one of those days where I can feel the anxiety under the surface and where I am monitoring it to see/keep it in check. Yesterday I was good, I had good dialogue in my mind, I was content with making mistakes in the past, but being a better human and person these days going forward. I can feel the ebb and flow of it today where the anxiety spikes, my internal dialogue say “am I going to freak out”, “confess this”, “say that”, “don’t say that”, “I’m a bad person”, “I’m a good person that is learning and growing every day” etc etc. Then the anxiety comes down, my mind feels clearer, less noisy and less physical feeling, and I feel like I don’t care about the OCD and me as much. Just been feeling the ebbs and flows of OCD over the course of months and days, and even within the day itself.
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