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- 1y
SO-OCD
Does anyone ever have really good days where you think all these thoughts were just silly and then suddenly everything hits you and you can't escape? Do you also question whether it's really OCD or not?
Does anyone ever have really good days where you think all these thoughts were just silly and then suddenly everything hits you and you can't escape? Do you also question whether it's really OCD or not?
First of yes there are sometimes I go wow did I really spiral over this lol I know that's that who I am. But ocd will always find a way to keep us stuck. And yes I think all ocd suffers have the "what if it's not ocd" thoughts it's because of ocd Ocd is the doubting disorder
Yes!! That’s all of us here ! Hahaha not making fun! But I struggle with socd rocd and harm ocd, mostly soocd and rocd, majority of the times I’ll have my storm, I’ll get through it and it’s calm and I feel myself and great again, I’ll look back and either laugh at the thoughts and spiral I was just in, or completely just forget about what I was spiraling over, but when I look back at the spiral and I’m feeling perfectly fine and normal again I feel like everything I just obsessed about was wrong and a liar , and then I’ll feel fine again for a good min, and then back into a spiral , even though I know I suffer from ocd, I still get mad at myself for becoming stuck or believing in said obsessive thoughts and doubts , even though I know my true self isn’t want my mind tells me. OCD sucks !
yes! and i feel it comes back stronger every time :/
@m6 But keep in mind, it also always goes away ! No matter the journey of stormy seas, there’s always the journey of calming sky’s after ! Never give up ! You’re not alone !
@Iamtheonewhooverthinks Thank you, I really needed to hear this 🫶🏻
@m6 No problem at all! Not being negative here, but ocd will never leave us, we just find a better way to live with it, with growth and maturity it gets better ! You manage it better, there will be days there’s world war 3 going on upstairs , but it still won’t be as badly as when you first were diagnosed or feeling said feelings, that’s my option at least , I’ve had ocd for a very long time, and I look back in my younger years and see it’s not as badly as it used to be, I still have bad moments, but nothing compares it to when I was younger
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And to add onto what I just said, literally have been obsessing and stuck in thought and urges and ideas of I don’t love my fiance , two weeks ago I purposed, she knows I suffer , she’s been the best woman to ever walk into my life , she knows all of my ocd subtypes and has still been there for me , I fell in love with her , but I always get doubts I don’t, or she doesn’t love me, it sucks, but anyways I purposed cause I’ve felt it throughout my whole soul and body over the year and a half with her how much I love her , but two weeks after I purposed I randomly got thoughts and ideas and urges she’s not the one, doubting my love for her questioning it, it’s detrimental and hurts me and scares me terribly, but I know myself and she does to, but literally after I posted my Comment those said thoughts went away lol, now they’ll probably come back, but I’m telling you cause it’s just so funny how ocd works, you can be stuck one min and then fine the next . It takes time but then you’re fine again .
@Iamtheonewhooverthinks Thank you for sharing, you got this!!
I meant to put that's not who I am lol
Haha I figured :p
im having a unusually hard flare up for two months. ive never had it this bad before (ive had this on and off for many years - thank god not constantly.) lately, i keep having these images in my head and scenarios in my head of me "coming out" in the future and ending my relationship with my amazing fiance who i love dearly. he knows everything but i still feel like i am constantly lying to him, my family, and friends. i need to know that this is something the SO-OCD can do to you? the weird thing is, is that i have never been attracted to woman. i do admire their beauty and wish to LOOK like them or have a specific feature they have, but i dont have any urges to like be with them yet i am dealing with this really bad flare up. My brain keeps telling me that since i have never tried it, i would never know, and i am just getting really distressed from it. i just want to be happy again and it seems impossible. I am convinced i am only person that is using SO-OCD as an excuse. Any guidance or advice, or anything really, will help. i just feel alone and scared and sad all the time.
These past few days I was fine. Minimal intrusive thoughts ,no anxiety etc(to add I'm on medication so maybe it's starting to work although it barely is 2 weeks) and today I got a sudden wave of anxiety and it started latching on some thoughts like" what if I'm in denial and I wanna break up with my bf? And what if erp doesn't work for me because I actually wanna break up with my bf?" But they didn't really stay long usually those thoughts would make me spiral for days or so, now they lasted for some hours. And now I'm trying to trigger myself into being anxious again because if I don't it means I don't have ocd and if I don't have ocd it means I don't love my bf and if I don't love my bf it means I have to break up. Idk if it makes sense but the lack of anxiety makes me wonder if I actually have ocd or not.
Does anyone else ever feel like they don’t feel “bad enough” to have OCD, or that they don’t feel “the right way” for it? Or like they’re just saying they have OCD as an excuse? Because i was so much better for like 3 weeks now and now im on my period and i started doubting again. So because of that im scared that i was feeling to good and that my fear is actually true.
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