Avoidance with games and movies

CBT

I think she just wanted to discard possibilities

@Wanderer99 What do you mean by possibilities?

@Wolfram Idk If that by any chance had affected my intrusive thoughts maybe

@Wanderer99 I don't think it would've directly. Initial intrusive thoughts are COMPLETELY random and are just embodiments of brain traffic. With ocd, your brain will latch onto perceived threats. The thought most likely conflicted with your core values and you maybe questioned why or how you could've thought or imagined it. This is usually where ocd gets a good grip. There's something called ironic process theory and it's the way our brain works. We can determine the difference between an actual threat and a perceived threat but our brains cannot. So when you saw this thought as invasive, you may have had a feeling or thought that followed that your put a notification bell on and labeled as a threat (real, perceived or otherwise). So when you try not to think about something, your brain checks that you're not thinking about it and ironically causes you to think about it more. That's how our brains are 🤦‍♂️ You have to train it in a way to break the cycle. Cbt can do this, but it's good to know how the brain works. If you want any tips, give an example of what you go through. Can be something light if you want as I know your theme can be scary to say out loud. (I've been there)

@Wolfram Thanks, so you think it's ok if I keep enjoying Tarantino movies and resident evil games??

@Wanderer99 Do you feel they trigger you if you do or don't watch or play them?

@Wolfram Mmmmm well right now, I had a flare up so yeah, probably I cannot stand them very much, but I have always enjoyed them a lot, so probably will have to wait until my anxiety lowers

@Wanderer99 So it triggers you currently because it clashed with the thoughts you have right? I'm trying to understand your position

@Wolfram Yep a little bit, but it's more because of the anxiety part, I don't feel that comfortable

@Wanderer99 Were you fine with it before?

@Wolfram Sure I was, I love them, they're my favorite

@Wanderer99 OK, so what you love triggers you. Avoidance is a compulsion and I'd talk to your therapist about that. You shouldn't avoid triggers if possible because you'll get worse over time and not just with this. I think the clash of the intrusive thought and your core values triggered the theme and nothing more. If there was no trauma with gore etc, it's not an issue and I understand why your therapist asked about it. At the moment your ocd will be triggered by these things unfortunately. Talk to your therapist about this and what I've said. Work on tackling the theme in the right way. Mention to them what I said about how the brain works and ask for a better understanding to help you undo it.