Fake feelings?

Does anyone else ever question if/doubt that their feelings are real? I've been doing that near constantly for a long time now, and it causes a LOT of distress (at least I THINK it's distress). Lately when I feel spiritual and read my scriptures, pray, or watch a religious message, or get the urge to, my brain says, "What if you're only doing this out of compulsion, not cuz you really want to?? What if your spiritual feelings are fake?" It hurts a lot to feel that way. Years ago my OCD was causing me to do insane scrupulous rituals, and in the aftermath, my concept of OCD rituals and healthy, spiritually uplifting rituals got crossed. :/ Like, "Is that the Holy Ghost or are you just being mentally ill again?" There are other feelings that my brains doubts, but spiritual ones are the most distressing.

Username: SpecklesSpeckles

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 37w ago

Yes...I do. I hate this feeling. I feel like all I do in my head is ask God for forgiveness then I start questioning... is there really a God and if so... why?? Why do I have this? Why are horrible things in this world and then I'm off to the races...ugh. exhausting

Username: bunniesncheesecakebunniesnchee...

Date posted: 37w ago

Oh my gosh. I am so, so sorry you experience this. That sucks so much. I question that too. It's an honest, innocent question---is God real?---but my brain makes me feel SO GUILTY for just THINKING it. And for asking other questions. Like you're a student in a class, and your OCD is the bully kid. "You idiot, why would you even ask that??" or whatever the OCD is saying. It is really exhausting.

Username: IseeinpinkkIseeinpinkk

Date posted: 37w ago

I’m experiencing the exact same thing I want to be close with god but at the same time feel like I don’t deserve him when I have those intrusive doubtful thoughts.

Username: bunniesncheesecakebunniesnchee...

Date posted: 37w ago

I'm so sorry you have to go through this. Intrusive thoughts like that can be so disheartening.

Username: IseeinpinkkIseeinpinkk

Date posted: 37w ago

@bunniesncheesecake Yes, definitely I’m sorry you experience this as well💗

Username: bunniesncheesecakebunniesnchee...

Date posted: 37w ago

@Iseeinpinkk - Thank you so much!! ❤️

Username: BobbyIX32BobbyIX32

Date posted: 37w ago

hey, i totally get how tough and confusing it can be when your ocd starts messing with your spiritual feelings and practices. it's really hard when something that should bring you peace instead brings doubt and distress. 😔 i'm dealing with a different ocd theme, but the struggle with intrusive thoughts and doubts feels all too familiar. so, something that's been a game-changer for me is this app called "unstuck ocd therapy tools." my local ocd support group recommended it, and it's packed with ai-personalized guidance and exercises that help you right when you need it. also, the ocd stories podcast has been a comforting companion for me. hearing others share their journeys makes me feel less alone in this. hope these can offer you some support too. 🌟

Username: PhillipFillip1PhillipFillip1

Date posted: 37w ago

Great suggestions!! I have also been using the unstuck app over the last few months and I have to say its been really helpful. The developers are very supportive and make new updates every week.

Username: ELO

Date posted: 5y ago

Does anyone else’s intrusive thoughts at times make them ‘feel’ things? Like if you have an intrusive thought about your boyfriend you then begin to feel you don’t want to be with him. And afterward you feel extreme guilt and shame because you do love him so much. I used to call them “fake feelings”

Username: ELO

Date posted: 5y ago

Ocd warriors please some advice ❤️ Are fake feelings a thing? Or am I just making stuff up. Sometimes I “feel” all these horrible things about my partner but I know even in those moments deep down that I love him! And when I’m not in those moments it’s not even just deep down that I love him - it’s right there, on the surface. I even feel guilty typing ‘deep down’ but it’s the only way I can try and explain it. I’m a 13hr shift tomorrow and I can’t even bare to think of it and how I will get through it feeling the way I do. For the first time in a while I’ve had suicidal thoughts and that’s not really like me. My fake ‘feelings’ make me feel I’ve betrayed my boyfriend, and I feel I’m not in control and have opposite actions. For example actions I don’t want to do, that I do. E.g, leaning too close over a colleague when reaching for something near them. I don’t know what else to do?

Username: jojobahnojo

Date posted: 3y ago

Anyone else have meta-ocd (obsessing about ocd itself)? I consider it for me the ultimate OCD fail safe. It keeps me doing the compulsions even if the distress goes away. I do most stuff just not to go through the constant rumination of ‘do I have ocd?’ and mental review of my entire life. I believe every thing I say and do now is fake/a lie/made up. I feel nothing but mentally I’m frustrated. Every time I do an ‘OCD-like’ behavior and do not experience uncomfortable emotions I doubt if I’m making it up for attention or misunderstood my symptoms. I am so distant from my emotions. I’m probably just ‘scared’ that I won’t be distressed> don’t have ocd> biggest fraud on this rotating rock. Sorry just had to vent. 😑

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