Taking everything as a sign

Christians with OCD- I feel like I’ve been getting signs saying I should abandon all secular media and potentially leave behind much of my family and friends to live a more “holy” life and leave behind “worldly culture” , I struggle to identify this as OCD as I’m scared it’s just me trying to avoid the “hard truths” that I just don’t want to face. What if God is sending me all these signs (admittedly through tiktok mostly) and I just brush them off as OCD because they make me feel bad? Anyone else experience this?

okay so i’ve had anxiety since i was atleast 8 and ocd since i could remember. and i’ve always done this thing where i’m like omg what if this is a sign and it stresses me out so much.. lately i’ve been having harm ocd thoughts worrying about hurting my partner and then yesterday i came across a tik tok video of a girl doing a reading and in the video she said whatever you’re thinking just do it and make that change and then in my head i’m like " what if this is trying to give me a sign about my harm ocd thoughts, what if it’s telling me to do it" but the thing is i would never hurt anyone nor even want to think about doing it.. these thoughts make me so anxious is this overthinking and does this count as intrusive thoughts as well? i’m always worried and think that what if one day i start to listen to my thoughts about thinking it’s a sign and it makes me SO ANXIOUS. is this normal for ocd/anxiety and how do i get rid of it?

So today while I was talking to myself, sometimes I do this, my mind said something like to ask for a sign from God and I didn’t mean to ask it or even wanting to ask it. I was talking to myself about something that happened a few months back for when I asked God, my grandmother who’s my guardian angel, and St Therese to help me get over the hunch of scrupulosity and OCD (I’m Catholic). They then gave me a sign in Church to let them know that they heard me and I felt peace, love and excitement then. I have been dealing with something lately that I asked them then to send me a sign if something didn’t happen or occurred, even though I couldn’t picture myself saying that. If anything I would have said the exact opposite to prove what happened or occurred, not to show me a sign if something beautiful didn’t happen. Yet the feeling felt so strong as if I did say that and it kept replaying in my mind over and over again. Going back to in the moment, It just went to my mind and blurted to my mouth about asking a sign from God even though I didn’t mean for it or intended it. I then got a thought thinking that I saw something later this morning thinking that God sent me a sign about something. Well, later this morning while looking at my daily Bible app, I saw something and my mind and feelings said that God sent me that sign. Now I’m flooded with anxiety because I was getting these thoughts before and now they like manifested into reality. It’s like as if God planted those thoughts in my head to tell me what’s coming and what will happen. I’m so angry, anxious and sad. I’m scared now that what I didn’t say is actually something that I said. It’s like God is constantly trying to tell me something and he’s keeping on telling me as if he’s playing a game with me and he won’t do it until I give up and give in. I don’t know what to do. I felt very depressed last night because last night because I couldn’t take this anymore as if God is telling me these things or he revealed me to something. Is this God or OCD that’s doing all this to me? I know it’s a lot but I just need feedback from you guys