- Username
- MessyBrain
- Date posted
- 30w ago
serious question
i've made so many mistakes in life, big and small, some multiple times. How am i supposed to know if i just have scrupulous and real event ocd or if im just rightfully feeling guilty and ashamed of things i've done wrong? what if having ocd is just an excuse to deflect from the shame i feel and convince myself im not a bad person so i don't have to actually fix myself? i fear this all the time. i cannot stop feeling like im a bad person no matter how many times i tell myself that im doing my best and that its okay to make mistakes and learn from them and it doesn't define me. i don't think im a good person and being complimented on being good in any way triggers me extremely bad. i don't know what's real.