Suicidal ocd

Yes I am! My first and longest lasting theme.

You're right they do certainly feed off of fear and attention! I'm working on finding the best responses but it is hard when it feels so urgent and scary!

I promise no response can sound crazy to me 😂 a common one is what if I'm really actually depressed and will lose control or hope and kill myself 😬

@Anonymous Oh the lose control one. Yup I know that one. I will help you but maybe you could try first. What would you say back to that thought? How would you cast doubt?

@Anonymous Think about losing it. I personally don't think I would know I'm losing it till it's lost. So how could you use that to come up with a response prevention?

@Anonymous That's a good point..I guess I could say "that's a wild idea!". If you got any good/funny ones I'm all ears lol

@Anonymous Yours is pretty good. You could take it further and be like that's a wild thought. I won't worry about it now. I will worry about it if it happens. Also you had depression in there..so I'd be like well I might be depressed or maybe not. I'll deal with it when I find out. Or we'll maybe I might lose hope and kill myself it could happen or if could not happen..I'll worry about it when and if it happens. Funny tends to elevate some of my anxiety and I want ocd to know she can bring it and I'm not going to do one little thing about it. No reassurance no goggleing, no problem solving. I just say above then go read a book, or listen to an audio book. Something I need to focus on to distract me from ocd thoughts.

@Anonymous I keep pushing back on the ocd thoughts CONSTANTLY.

@Anonymous Thank you SO very much!! It seems to ring true that it really is a lifestyle choice vs a one a done thing (would be nice if it were that way!). Do you find it gets easier with practice and time?

@Anonymous For me its gotten so much easier. I've decided to look at the rest of my life as an exposure. I honestly think my progress has been a combination of my meds, nocd therapy and 2 books my psychiatrist recommended. When Bob (ocd) tosses a thought my way I can deal with most of them. I have other mental health challenges I see my doctor for and it'd been progress all around. Try to celebrate those small wins. I hope your in ERP. I fond having the support if my NOCD therapist key to really getting how to do the exposures and transferring those skills to rumination and reassurance. I hope all this helps

@Anonymous I am in ERP on here! You've helped beyond words. Thank for you the encouragement and I pray you continue to kick ass. I'm sure you will!