Anonymous
- Date posted
- 1y
Suicidal ocd
Can others with suicidal ocd share some common symptoms they noticed/experience with this theme?
Sarah CSarah C
- Date posted
- 1y
I had this before, I have somatic OCD so I always think about my breathing, but sometimes my mind wants me to hold my breath to make it go away or to see whats the worst-case scenario is. I don't know if my mind is overly curious or it is trying to hurt me. You're truly not alone. I have a relative with suicidal OCD and she got help and they gave her treatments and exercises now she has a new found love for life and enjoys the small things in life.
confused writerconfused writer
- Date posted
- 1y
How I’d do it, when, where, pain in my veins, distress, kind of depression, rumination, seeking reassurance, avoidance etc
SitwithitSitwithit
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Hi are you diagnosed harm ocd?
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y
Yes I am! My first and longest lasting theme.
SitwithitSitwithit
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
I had constant thoughts. The what if this or what if that. Then I had more confusing ones. With those thoughts I say oh shut up to my ocd and move on. It's hard just found it feeds it if I pay attention to it..and when I say hard I'm really under selling it.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y
You're right they do certainly feed off of fear and attention! I'm working on finding the best responses but it is hard when it feels so urgent and scary!
SitwithitSitwithit
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Can I ask what your thought is? Maybe I can help you come up w a good response prevention? Or I can give you mine. I warn you they sound insane. It helps shut up KAREN (ocd) though
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y
I promise no response can sound crazy to me 😂 a common one is what if I'm really actually depressed and will lose control or hope and kill myself 😬
SitwithitSitwithit
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonymous Oh the lose control one. Yup I know that one. I will help you but maybe you could try first. What would you say back to that thought? How would you cast doubt?
SitwithitSitwithit
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonymous Think about losing it. I personally don't think I would know I'm losing it till it's lost. So how could you use that to come up with a response prevention?
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonymous That's a good point..I guess I could say "that's a wild idea!". If you got any good/funny ones I'm all ears lol
SitwithitSitwithit
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonymous Yours is pretty good. You could take it further and be like that's a wild thought. I won't worry about it now. I will worry about it if it happens. Also you had depression in there..so I'd be like well I might be depressed or maybe not. I'll deal with it when I find out. Or we'll maybe I might lose hope and kill myself it could happen or if could not happen..I'll worry about it when and if it happens. Funny tends to elevate some of my anxiety and I want ocd to know she can bring it and I'm not going to do one little thing about it. No reassurance no goggleing, no problem solving. I just say above then go read a book, or listen to an audio book. Something I need to focus on to distract me from ocd thoughts.
SitwithitSitwithit
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonymous I keep pushing back on the ocd thoughts CONSTANTLY.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonymous Thank you SO very much!! It seems to ring true that it really is a lifestyle choice vs a one a done thing (would be nice if it were that way!). Do you find it gets easier with practice and time?
SitwithitSitwithit
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonymous For me its gotten so much easier. I've decided to look at the rest of my life as an exposure. I honestly think my progress has been a combination of my meds, nocd therapy and 2 books my psychiatrist recommended. When Bob (ocd) tosses a thought my way I can deal with most of them. I have other mental health challenges I see my doctor for and it'd been progress all around. Try to celebrate those small wins. I hope your in ERP. I fond having the support if my NOCD therapist key to really getting how to do the exposures and transferring those skills to rumination and reassurance. I hope all this helps
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonymous I am in ERP on here! You've helped beyond words. Thank for you the encouragement and I pray you continue to kick ass. I'm sure you will!
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cows12465
- Date posted
- 20w
suic. ocd advice?
so I need to get back into ERP, but it’s so hard to manage these thoughts and learn to deal with them. like I swear my mind has to make everything about it. Like every time I clean my room, my mind’s like yup make sure it’s clean so when your parents find you, or something so stupid like if I get a headache, my mind convinces me that I like the pain and that that’s why I get my thoughts because I actually want to do it. It’s so exhausting. Because I know I would never want to take my life and I treasure my life so why does it do it to me? It’s hard to comprehend the fact of these thoughts too because I don’t know many people with this exact theme. It’s such a scary feeling. And I’m constantly questioning whether I have actual depression or if it’s just my OCD. Yes I have been diagnosed with suicidal OCD, but my mind still tries to convince me otherwise. I just don’t know how to let these just sit and pass without panicking.
Elliesmith
- Date posted
- 18w
Question
So with my theme of ocd, ( hocd ) I get persistent intrusive images, and thoughts. It’s not like one or two a day. Like if I’m out for the whole day they’re constant. I feel I can’t even look at a girl now without her intrusive thoughts about her or about me fancying her and even sexual intrusive thoughts.. It’s awful. It’s everywhere I look. Is this common with ocd with any themes? Like is it constant for you guys too?
cows12465
- Date posted
- 16w
suic ocd
the thoughts that have been making me super anxious recently is every-time I’m around someone im happy with my mind is like “they will miss you” or “they will wonder why you did it when your always happy” it’s eating me i hate it. i’m tired of this theme, it’s been on and off for three years. but it makes me more anxious now the it does before. please share tips
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