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:( SO-OCD struggles
To my fellow SO-OCD fighters, Do you guys ever feel like your OCD tricks you into thinking that you actually like these thoughts? And does that send you down another spiral?
To my fellow SO-OCD fighters, Do you guys ever feel like your OCD tricks you into thinking that you actually like these thoughts? And does that send you down another spiral?
It tried to rule me, but no. I know I'm straight, I like women, I'm in a relationship. I'm having thoughs, just probably not as everyone does. But I do. I know who I am, and I know what ocd is. It is not real, it is trying to defeat me. I won't gonna let. What really helped me is knowledge of ocd as such, and knowing what I am, who I am
@skchui So, you are in a relationship with a girl?
@skchui Aaand having hard times with so-ocd?
Oh, my apologies. Please, I'm not professional. I'm just saying my personal expirience. So, it can be OCD if there is some trigger for obsessive thoughts kicking in. If the thoughts are unwanted, unpleasant. Ye, it can be OCD, can you tell me more about what you expiriencing, what feelings? What thoughts? It there some trigger?
Well, I think this could be more trauma related, than ocd. Unless there are really obsessive, unwanted thoughts and concerns about your sexuality and attraction, it this case it could be ocd. But from what you wrote, I think there is something you are not over yet, something from your last relationships. And It reflected in your nowadays relationship. Reconise the things that troubling you, I hope you have a understanding boyfriend, try to talk with him about this. Try therapy. Don't do those compulses. It is making things worse, trust me. With insecurity of men, it could be challenging. But if you are sure that you are straight, it just need a correct self treatment, well-being and stuff. Talk with your boyfriend, if you want, you can consider therapy. Text me if you have some questions about anything Please, keep in mind I'm not professional
@skchui Well, Instagram is only place I can think of
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Does anyone have any advice for how to know the difference between ocd and real feelings/thoughts? Sometimes an intrusive thought will come in and I immediately know it’s ridiculous and I can just leave it alone and it won’t bother me but other times I really really don’t know. It’s when ocd hijacks and twists my real feelings and thoughts and tries to manipulate me into believing they’re something they’re not or something that doesn’t align with my true morals or intentions. But since it’s twisting and mixing with real feelings I get so confused and scared. Everything gets jumbled and I feel like I can’t trust myself or my own mind. Yet other times and other topics I can laugh off and push away just fine. Make it make sense. And then I start to think well maybe I don’t have ocd at all and I’m just in denial because I don’t want to accept that these scary/concerning things are true about myself. Or maybe that’s just the ocd talking.
I have just recently realized that I had SO OCD. This began whenever I was watching porn and had an intrusive thought about the guy in the porn. It was more minor at first, it was a majority of what I was thinking about throughout the day but it didn’t feel as distressing at first. If I had downtime to think about it, it would affect me but if I was just going about my day I wouldn’t notice it. I began going through the compulsions of checking myself. This lasted for a while until another obsession occurred. Then it seemed as if my SO OCD took a step back. I would have flare ups but they would seem to pass. Recently, I had a very bad night of constant compulsions and looking at pictures and imagining things to check myself. After that night it was very distressing, it affected me to the point where people around me began to notice and ask me if I was okay. One of the big reasons I was so upset was my girlfriend, we have been together for over 3 years and I want to spend the rest of my life with her. I was thinking “Oh my god, if I am gay I can never be with her.” I would sit and cry about it thinking I would lose her and that might life would change because I was gay. I finally had enough and talked to her and my parents. We did some research and I was so shocked to find out that I had a form of OCD, it was like a weight being lifted off my shoulders just knowing that other people have been where I am and that I’m not gay. However, I may have naively expected the compulsions and obsessive thoughts to go away now that I knew I had an actual problem. But I found that the compulsions and thoughts were still there and I was going to put some effort into getting better. I have researched and now know what to do when experiencing intrusive thoughts, yet I still have been performing the compulsions which is just feeding into the OCD. I find myself having intrusive thoughts and then start performing compulsions to see if they are true. What really bothers me is when I have an intrusive thought that tells me that I do like something. But when I think about it I have no desire to pursue those thoughts. However when I feed into the compulsions they just seem to feed into each other. It is like my OCD ignores all the things that I know I like and goes straight to panic mode. I am also trying to do ERP and am going to start doing my best to get better. Does anyone have any tips for not performing the compulsions no matter how anxious you are feeling and no matter how real the intrusive thoughts seem to feel?
Whenever anyone starts to feel like their thoughts are less triggering or they feel a moment of happiness/ relief OCD tells you that you want the thoughts back or you actually like having the thoughts and maybe thats just the person I really am? I feel like im going insane😢
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