Religious OCD & Intrusive Thoughts

So about 2 weeks ago I started having blasphemous intrusive thoughts about God & Jesus! I’ve had them before but they’re hard to brush off because you feel awful and disgusted for even having them. They were “rejecting thoughts” I finally was able to just let them float on by and not pay attention to them. My main theme is doubting God & Jesus but I’ve noticed it’ll switch on me. Sometimes my mind will doubt if it’s OCD! So currently 2 days ago I’ve been getting the blasphemous thoughts again but when I said “I love you Jesus” I heard instead of Jesus it was Satan! I panicked and sometimes when I say I love Jesus and God I hear “I love you S____” it freaks me out!!! I love God & Jesus so much! Those thoughts cause so much anxiety!!! I would never say that thought and I wish it would go away or remove all those thoughts! I Like ughh those awful intrusive thoughts hurts so much! Some times if feels like I think them or say them purposely in my mind! But I try to remind myself I don’t want them! They cause so much anxiety and distress for a reason! It’s just so annoying when it’s constantly changing and throwing other “themes” I try to tell myself this is still in the same category! I had a certain blasphemous thought weeks ago and now it’s a “new” one and I think it’s still a thought it’s just different and maybe that’s how it’s trying to trip me up! But then usually a bunch of them start coming like beating me down! Maybe it’s the themes switching up on me again but ughh it’s really hard! Makes it feel like it’s me but I don’t want these thoughts at all!!! Everytime I say I love Jesus & God those thoughts come and just randomly! I feel like it’s “me” but I’m reminding myself it’s OCD! The more I react the more they come! They make me feel like God is mad at me or He doesn’t love me which I know isn’t true at all! I know He loves me so much!! It’s just so sad that my mind thinks that! Sometimes I feel like He is mad or will leave me but I know that’s not true!! Any advice please 😭

Username: OCDFamilyOCDFamily

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 36w ago

God loves you - you are his precious child. He knows you are struggling with ocd. The more i get caught up in a theme, the worse it gets. Ocd lies and twists things to get your attention.

Username: Liv24Liv24

Date posted: 36w ago

I get this a lot aswell as sexual thoughts so you can imagine how disturbing they are!!!! My heart hurts because I want them to stop so much and I don’t want them I feel so tormented by them and feel also like I’m thinking them on purpose and sometimes I think I do just to check they are ‘still there’ is that makes sense. I just want to feel normal again. Also when I tried to tell God how sorry I am or I try and talk to him in my head it’s saying the opposite things or some awful things!!! Xxx

Username: BobbyIX32BobbyIX32

Date posted: 36w ago

man, i feel you on this. those intrusive thoughts can be so tough, especially when they hit on something as personal as your faith. 🙏 it's really brave of you to share and to keep reminding yourself that these thoughts are not you; they're your ocd playing tricks. i'm dealing with a different ocd theme myself, but i've found some tools that really help. one is this app called "unstuck ocd therapy tools" – my local ocd support group recommended it, and it's been a game-changer. it gives you ai-personalized guidance and exercises right when you need them. also, i've been tuning into the ocd stories podcast. it's filled with insights and experiences from others dealing with ocd, and it makes me feel less alone in this. maybe these could offer you some support too.

Username: PhillipFillip1PhillipFillip1

Date posted: 35w ago

i use unstuck and highly recommend u check it out too!!

Username: Kit Kat Chocolate Kit Kat Choc...

Date posted: 27w ago

Hi there! Someone on here encouraged Christian people to check out Mark DeJesus online. He is very knowledgeable about religious OCD. Hope this helps! 😊

Username: alexisd

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Suicide OCD

Hey everyone. I have been struggling with this theme this week. I had a panic attack at the beginning of the week and I got hit with a bunch of suicide intrusive thoughts. That is the last thing on earth I want to do and it hurts me because my mind makes me believe I want to. I get in a really sad dark alone place and sometimes I think about it but also I feel like it is intrusive because I have told myself no matter how bad it gets, no matter how shitty it feels I will not do anything to take my own life. It brings me so much sadness and guilt when I think about those kinds of things. It’s been hard because I have been trying to mindfully redirect and stay in the present moment but the thoughts come back and it makes it so hard to move on or when I’m in a happy moment that feels good my intrusive thoughts just come flooding back. I have tried to accept that those thoughts are there and I need to do things towards my goals and values but it’s been so difficult to accept this feeling and notice those thoughts when they are so against everything I love and it’s so hard when it’s one of my biggest fears. I cry and cry because I’m just so scared of those thoughts and it makes me think I actually want to do it. Anyway has anyone else experienced this? I feel so guilty and sometimes get thoughts that this feeling will never go away even thought I know for a fact I can get past it. Any advice? Or does anyone relate?

Username: Mr. Motivation

Date posted: 1y ago

OCD thoughts?

Hello! Lately I’m dealing with my brain giving me intrusive scenarios or almost giving me worst case scenarios and my mind instantly believes them! For example: My Brain will give me an intrusive scenarios like “what if god is actually punishing me with these thoughts!” Then my brain gives me negative emotions towards god and being a Christian it’s just heart breaking!

Username: Jolee0524

Date posted: 37w ago

Religious OCD

Hey guys so I’m new to this. I struggle really bad with religious ocd on top of other themes of ocd i have. But the religious ocd and POCD I have are definitely the hardest two. Today was so hard for me because I was freaking out all day about the eclipse and if it was the end of the world. I grew of in a very strict church and being gay was not acceptable so now I feel I’m morally wrong and unlovable in a sense. I don’t really know how to explain it. Wether it was from my youth pastor outing me on stage in front of all of my friends and hundreds of students, to them praying over me for years on end, before I finally left the church. Yet I still question if my salvation is safe or not. I question if God loves me etc. it gets so bad that I’m convinced everything I do is because I’m possessed by a demon. And I’ll start to vomit. Literally vomit. It sounds wild I know. Wether it’s music my ocd deems demonic or movies or spiritual things such as tarot cards that I enjoy. But my mind will convince me if I use them I will go to hell because that’s what I was taught for so long. I just wish I could get better but I don’t know how and I’m so hopeless.

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