i just learned what a groinal response is, and i think i have it. i do not know how to go on any longer if that is what’s happening. pocd is bad enough, to add that to the list feels impossible. i feel so disgusted and humiliated. i feel like this is all the evidence i need that i am a p. please help me. i don’t know how to survive this
Hey Carrie! So I wanna share something with you. I didn’t know I was experiencing POCD. For the last year and half, I have been having POCD thoughts come and go, and I fought against them. It made it worse. I also had a groinal response. I would be around my niece and have it and I thought I was a P. As well.. but I’m not. That is not who I am at all, that is not my character. I wanna let you know Carrie. You can overcome this POCD. With God, you can do anything through Christ who gives you strength. Jesus wants to set you free from POCD Carrie. It is a journey of learning to love yourself. And learning to receive Gods love for you Carrie. You are not what your thoughts tell you you are. Don’t fight against them. Remember, in the moments when the POCD is high, don’t fight them. Become aware of them, & just take yourself a bit less serious every day when they come. You can do this. Learn what OCD is so that you can know the root of it, I recommend to get into mark de Jesus work, get his book, the OCD healing journey. You got this. You don’t need to be perfect. Relax, take a breath, & remember, it’s okay where you’re at. It’s a journey, not an overnight process. Your not a p, your a child of God who has values and loves people. OCD perverts that, but it’s okay, cuz you will overcome it
@Anonymous thank you so much. i really needed to hear this
@carriejenson Carrie you’re not a P. Learn to love yourself Carrie. Understand this, that God loves you. Not based on what you do, but based on who He is. He’s your Father Carrie. And He wants you to learn to love yourself, but you can only do that when you begin the journey of letting Him love you right where you’re at. You don’t need to fix yourself, what you need, is to learn to accept yourself as you are. No one is perfect Carrie, you don’t need to be. God doesn’t expect you to be perfect. You will get through this battle, & you will overcome it
@carriejenson I recommend to try this what mark de Jesus says. It’s called TULA. Total unconditional love and acceptance. It ain’t easy let me tell ya. But, place your hand and your heart,& say, I totally unconditionally love and accept myself right where I’m at. I know it sounds cliche, but as you do this overtime, and learn to stop fighting against the OCD, you will begin to slowly believe it. And who knows? You’ll start to feel more accepting of yourself, you got this Carrie
@Anonymous thank you so, so much♥️
@carriejenson Try that book if you feel pulled too you got this
@Anonymous i will try. it’s just so hard to feel like i’m even worthy to read the book or pray or even breathe. i feel like God is disgusted by me
Try journaling. It helps
I am hurting so much right now. I feel sad and disgusted with myself that I would even worry about these things (pocd). What kind of a human even thinks that and has doubts about that?? Definitely not one that’s rational or mentally sane. That kind of stuff should be a no brainer so why do I worry about it so much and what does it say about me? I feel sick and disgusted and can’t stop crying over it. I just feel so defeated like I want to disappear. I started ERP and every time I resist reassuring myself it comes back at me from every angle. I hate this so much.
Ugh i was making salah and has groinals. And worried i heard my childs voice. I struggke with pocd. I moved my legs because it hit the bed and i heard my kids voice then i felt groinals as i was bowing in ruku. My compulsion is saying stop and no and adjusting. And my ocd also causes involuntary intrusivr movements. Like sudden twitches or hip thrusts or bodily movements. I just remember adjusting while in ruku and saying no and stop to the thoughts. I also remember feeling thr groinals and just being in third person and observing jt. I also froze up and felt stuck. This happened twice. Then ocd says i was arousing myself over my kids voice during salah which i know is absurd its ego dystonic its ocd. I hate having pocd and groinals. I know i was just adjusting because ei hit the bed. Then i felt groinals and heard my kids voice and felt triggered by pocd. Then i felt my body twitching in ruku and me adjusting and also freezing up and getting stuck. Ocd tries ti make me thing i did something sexually inappropriate during prayer. I know thats not who i am. I dont do sexual inappropriate acts and especially not during prayer. I’ve already been very anxious for days so i know its just a continuation of ocd attacking me. I just hate that ofd makes me think by me adjusting and by bodily movements anxiously intrusively incoluntary moving and me getting stuck that i did something bad thats what ocd tells me. I know its not true. Why does ocd make us think or feel we did something bad
hi does anyone ever get a random grounal response then feel aroused but you don’t want to be like before i had the thought i was feeling a little aroused then i had a random thought and it had the ground response and i felt aroused i don’t understand.
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