@Kndymomma Well one thing I did was I never restricted myself necessarily. I didn’t stop myself from checking. Checking can be viewed as a compulsion but in this case, I think looking at ex girlfriend’s posts can also act as a sort of exposure. Eventually my anxiety as I viewed their posts would decrease over time, and with that so too did my desire to check.
Another important thing to note is I had a bit of a mindset change (this may serve as reassurance but retroactive jealousy can ALSO be caused by insecurities/trauma, not just OCD. So this advice will hopefully help!) Instead of comparing myself to them, I reminded myself that my partner is with ME. No one else. Yeah all those girls are pretty, clearly fun, and my bf clearly loved them (I see it in the comments under photos from back when he dated them lol). But, as my bf once told me, “imagine just how amazing and beautiful you must be that I chose YOU.” My bf tells me he remembers them, of course, and perhaps even fondly—-but meeting me was when he truly experienced love, and that nothing compares. I may not be his first, but I sure dang well can be his last.
When my partner and I first started talking (not even dating yet!), he would bring up his past girls because it was his only context for relationships. He didn’t know anything else, and he clearly wanted me to know everything about him right upfront. He was shockingly vulnerable with me. My retroactive jealously started then, but now I am building new memories with him, and I realize I am not simply “another girl” but rather a whole new journey in his life. He now rarely brings up his past. I’ve tried to bring it up myself (my OCD made me bait him lol😅), but he’s clearly closed those chapters in his life and, while still holding fondness for the past, he wants to focus on his present and future WITH ME. And I feel the same way. 🤷♀️
Sure somedays I break and I get hit with a wave of OCD, but I’m improving everyday.
I also am comfortable with the fact that my partner doesn’t maintain large contact with his past partners. He barley uses his private social media now. Maybe they say hi every now and then, but if that happens, he tells me about it. Communication is so, so important. Don’t leave behind gaps in a relationship where there can develop the illusion of things. We tell each other enough about things that trust is maintained even when we are unable to communicate.
Wishing you the best. Lmk if there’s anything else I can help with! ❤️