I called a therapist to consider switching my therapist and told her about my thoughts and then she asked me “is it the ocd thoughts? Don’t you have a plan to do it?” SERIOUSLY?????????????
It’s frustrating when people don’t understand the content of OCD self-harm thoughts. Idk if this is similar to your situation, but I have had many people treat me like I was actively suicidal when they were just intrusive suicidal thoughts. It was frustrating for me. I’m sorry 💗
@HopeM365 She needed to ask to make sure, but if I was sure I wouldn’t call her at first place or go to therapy 😫😫😫
This has happened to me before. For a long time I was misdiagnosed with depression and suicidal ideation, even though the thoughts absolutely horrified me and I was fixating on them to try to get them to stop!! Finally having an answer and knowing I wasn’t alone in having these thoughts helped a lot. And you deserve to have a therapist who is knowledgeable about OCD as well. When my OCD was still very severe, all I wanted was reassurance, and a therapist can’t build trust with you to ultimately treat you if they can’t provide you with reassurance up front. Ultimately, challenging that reassurance will be positive for treatment, but in the beginning it can be very triggering in my experience. I’m sorry you had that response. I know how it feels!
@andip37 My therapist gave me the reassurance still I didn’t trust it 100% but I wanted to switch therapist bc she is very pricey and I think there isn’t enough CBT but the thing is that she knows me and another one might hospitalise me or something bc I can’t say 100% is because of the ocd 😫😫😫 I’m not terrified enough anymore I’m just on it all day and don’t want the thoughts
@confused writer I hear you. OCD is insidious!
@andip37 How did you get better? Did you think about it ALL the time too? 😫
@confused writer ✨🙏 you can do it! one day at a time you can get better 🙏✨ your OCD is a part of you but it doesn't define you! accepting it and learning to live with it will bring you peace 😔 🌙 the road is hard but you can absolutely do it 💪✨ it will get easier if you keep at it there's a path for you 🤗 sending prayers 🙏 ✨
@confused writer Oh boy, did I! Yes ALL the time. It consumed my life. And when I wasn’t having the thought, I was worried they would come again. So no matter what I was fixating on them. Going through the ERP process with a knowledgeable therapist helped a lot. And then when I had a really bad flare up and realized that I was someone who needed both therapy and the right medication, I started meds. And now with both the ERP tools plus meds I feel SO much freer, like a weight has been lifted. The thoughts are still there sometimes, but much less intense and it feels much easier to just let them go by. You WILL get better - you can do it! But I know how it feels to be where you are right now. And it is a lot. Keep talking about it because that helps, too, to know you’re not alone.
@andip37 The hardest thing for me is to believe it’s only ocd, because I feel like I’m going through every day and survive it 🤦🏻♀️ if it makes sense… I know deep down I don’t really want to die,but it’s deep deep deep down I’d love if we could talk!
@kathleenshubby4eva Thank you so much!
@confused writer Totally get that. I thought I was legit insane for a long time, always worried what if I’m just fooling myself, fixated on wanting to hide the thoughts so badly because what if they are what is real, etc etc. OCD traps you in a loop and it is soooooo hard to see out of it.
@andip37 Exactly
just been to therapy and i was explaining my contamination ocd and says i don’t diagnose ocd but this doesn’t seem severe enough? so now im spiralling am i just lying to myself and im just a freak. does she mean my other ocds aren’t real either? i’m just honestly so upset. need advice please im just spiralling so much i take medication for ocd and basically have every symptom and subtype of ocd:(
(21+ ONLY: TRIGGER WARNING) I have therapy today and I’m nervous. I just started going to therapy and I really like my therapist. She talked to me about doing ERP and I’m really nervous about it. I’m scared to tell her the extent of my OCD, and my themes. I’m scared to tell her about my false memory OCD, because I’m scared that what I did was real and I’m just excusing it as false memory, although I have no memory of it. I’m scared that I am truly a monster and I’m using OCD as an excuse—and that she’ll find out and distance herself. I’m just scared that my whole world is gonna fall apart, all around me.
I’ve been triggered so bad this week I’ve had bad anxiety and feel depression coming on. Last night I had a thought oh let’s plan it and I immediately thought why would I think that and started crying bad. I’ve had these thoughts for 7 months I really don’t know why I’m having these thoughts, if I knew I would work on it. Like people say has something happened in your life for you to have these thoughts and nothing has happened, it all started off from what if thoughts , like “what if I’m a psycho” because I saw this fb post saying introverts are more likely to become psychopaths and it all spiralled from there I started getting thoughts about harm towards others and myself. What do you think guys should I treat it like ocd or do you think there’s something seriously wrong with me.
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