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@Ilovemyhusband0322. Yes. Do not worry about someone else’s opinions. They’re just opinions. Some people will say that ocd is fake and you’re just in denial. Which is literally said about any theme. And others will agree that it is real. At the end of the day it doesn’t matter. Live with the uncertainty that you may or may not have “internalized homophobia”. That’s not something you need to figure out. I keep saying uncertainty because giving an answer to ocd is not helpful. If you say no, you’ll get thoughts you don’t like. If you say yes, you’ll still get thoughts you don’t like. OCD will make you feel like you should not be happy and enjoy your life but you do deserve it. Sometimes I say to myself that life is short, why am I going to let this silly thing dictate my life?

@Ilovemyhusband0322. Sometimes asking for reassurance will back fire on you that is why it’s not good to ask for other opinions. It has back fired on me so much in the past. You will only keep wanting validation that you’re not into women. It only helps for a short term.

@Ilovemyhusband0322. I understand! I used to care about other opinions before learning to not care. Just because you feel that way doesn’t make it true.

@Ilovemyhusband0322. Your husband loves you just as much and is there for you every step of the way. The only person that can combat this is you ☺️. You got this! If it too triggering, I would leave the facebook group. Use it for tips but not for reassurance. Reassurance is not your friend.

@Ilovemyhusband0322. It’s just your ocd talking. Don’t feel that way. Think of it this way, you feel like you don’t deserve him over silly thoughts and feelings? We all have silly thoughts and feelings doesn’t mean it applies to your real life. The more you beat yourself up about it, the more it makes things worse. And don’t ask for reassurance or feel the urge confess anything to him. If you feel like you need reassurance over a thought let it sit there and sit with anxiety. Dont fight with it or analyze it. Just let it be there like a cloud passing through. Or a fish swimming through a river.

@Ilovemyhusband0322. Anytime you feel an urge just be like “How would this benefit my relationship? What would I get out of doing this besides making things awkward after”? Trust me when I think of past confessions I get embarrassed because it wasn’t necessary lol. If you feed into the images and statements it’ll keep going. Just letting it be there without bothering it like any other thought will work. Let’s say you’re at the mall and you walk by and see a dress but you think it’s ugly. You wouldn’t go up to the cashier and say “Hey I just had a thought that this dress is hideous”. You would have the thought and keep it moving with your day! This is hard but accept that you may or may not like women. Once you accept it your brain won’t give it any importance. And any images or questions or statements won’t even make you anxious anymore.

@Muffin34 Just because you accept it doesn’t make it true. But acceptance is how ocd will leave you the hell alone regarding this theme.

@Ilovemyhusband0322. Are you currently seeing a therapist ? Before I discovered nocd I had the same reaccuring theme for years. It was torture. One of the best things that ever happened to me.

@Ilovemyhusband0322. Why don’t you start with a timer? When you feel like googling. Set a timer for 5 minutes and increase it. Don’t give it any importance. Or delete 5 screenshots today.

@Ilovemyhusband0322. Another thing I wanted to say was to think about the fact that googling hasn’t helped you long term. You don’t want to keep feeding your ocd.

@Ilovemyhusband0322. It’s okay you can only move forward ❤️

@Ilovemyhusband0322. I’m sorry. I hope you get peace some day. And you will.