Suicidal OCD Panic Attack

Went down the rabbit hole this morning after I got off a call with my nurse practitioner. We decided to up my fluvoxemine and change from Zyprexa to Abilify because my intrusive thoughts and depression seem to have worsened. For whatever reason after I got off the call, panic set in maybe about changing meds or upping my dosage. My mind was racing and I couldn’t calm down. I probably said “kill myself” and “I don’t want to kill myself” a hundred times. I haven’t had a panic attack in a few weeks and this one was bad. I’m finally calmed down but still having the intrusive thoughts. What have I done to deserve this. I can’t take it anymore.

Username: HopeM365HopeM365

Date posted: 34w ago

I’ve been on Abilify and struggle with suicidal ocd. It’s helped me get stabilized. Gained a little weight though lol 😅 I also have the intrusive thought “I want to die… no I don’t, not really” replaying throughout the day whenever I’m upset about something. After making a mistake at a new internship & getting in trouble with it, my suicidal obsessions changed from “I want to die” to “I could take these pills right now”. I thought that meant I was actively suicidal but it was probably an OCD flare up. I say this to say, you’re not alone. Sometimes crises of different severities happen. You’re going to get through this and have survived 100% of your worst bad days. You’re stressed and with good reason.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 34w ago

@HopeM365 Thank you so much for sharing. I really appreciate it. I have survived the worst days and I needed that reminder. Flare ups are the worst and having this community of folks is very helpful

Username: luverlytwizzlesluverlytwizzles

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 34w ago

I’m dealing with this too. Abilify and I didn’t get along but I’m currently switching over to Luvox to see if it’ll help. I struggle with this a lot and everyday you chose to work through your struggles is another day where you can embrace the win. I’m tired AF doing it but you gotta just move forward and hope for the best.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 34w ago

@luverlytwizzles Just curious what negative side effects you noticed with Abilify?

Username: luverlytwizzlesluverlytwizzles

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 34w ago

@Zach34!! Weight gain and severe nausea

Username: mandiocdmandiocd

Date posted: 34w ago

Do you have a insta?? Going through same thing! We can talk through it

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 34w ago

@mandiocd Zach Uhrich

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 32w ago

@mandiocd Zachuhrich

Username: alexisd

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Suicide OCD

Hey everyone. I have been struggling with this theme this week. I had a panic attack at the beginning of the week and I got hit with a bunch of suicide intrusive thoughts. That is the last thing on earth I want to do and it hurts me because my mind makes me believe I want to. I get in a really sad dark alone place and sometimes I think about it but also I feel like it is intrusive because I have told myself no matter how bad it gets, no matter how shitty it feels I will not do anything to take my own life. It brings me so much sadness and guilt when I think about those kinds of things. It’s been hard because I have been trying to mindfully redirect and stay in the present moment but the thoughts come back and it makes it so hard to move on or when I’m in a happy moment that feels good my intrusive thoughts just come flooding back. I have tried to accept that those thoughts are there and I need to do things towards my goals and values but it’s been so difficult to accept this feeling and notice those thoughts when they are so against everything I love and it’s so hard when it’s one of my biggest fears. I cry and cry because I’m just so scared of those thoughts and it makes me think I actually want to do it. Anyway has anyone else experienced this? I feel so guilty and sometimes get thoughts that this feeling will never go away even thought I know for a fact I can get past it. Any advice? Or does anyone relate?

Username: horserider4l...

Date posted: 24w ago

HELP! PANIC ATTACK

Just got an intrusive thought and I’m having a panic attack as I write this. Someone called me weird today, somebody said I can’t listen at all, then someone else said something hurtful. Been feeling down today and then as I was eating I got an intrusive thought that said I am going depressed again. I’ve been going crazy. Fidgeting, bouncing my leg, sped up breathing… And I feel light headed and I just need somebody to tell me everything is okay. I can’t tell my mother because I told her I think I have OCD and she simply brushed it off and she will get frustrated with me if I tell her I am having a panic attack…

Username: marcygirl23

Date posted: 24w ago

Medication - OCD

Hey everyone. I have suicidal ocd. About 6 weeks ago I started on medication (citalopram) for my ocd. I had rough up and downs for the first week weeks, then about 2-3 great weeks, and now I don’t know what’s going on. I feel as if I’m thinking constantly but my anxiety response is gone. For suicidal ocd, it’s scary because I based the fact it was OCD off how much anxiety I’ve gotten. Now I’m really concerned with myself over all the thoughts. Any advice? Anyone have ups and downs with meds? Any kind words are appreciated

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