Sometimes it feels like I am not inside my body. Almost like I have no control. When I feel this way, it makes the thoughts/urges so much scarier. Any tips or advice? I feel very alone with this one.
Hi! I’ve had a very intense episode of this today so i know how you’re feeling. What you’re experiencing is dp/dr and it’s your body’s natural reaction to being under stress and anxiety. It can be really distressing when you have OCD because it makes your thoughts race more and more. I read a really good article about it I’ll try find and share. Just know you are safe and you won’t do anything that you don’t want to do.
@Miaro1121 This is so helpful. If you happen to find the article, let me know! Thanks for making me feel not alone.
As someone who is had pure ocd for A long time it often does feel like you will lose control of yourself and hurt someone or yourself. It feels like you secretly want to act out whatever fear your OCD is giving you. You are not going to hurt anyone but the ocd feels real , like you have a inner voice or evil part of you. Even though I know my bad thoughts are just ocd they still terrify me sometimes.
@Brooke cookie This explains exactly how I feel. It is so terrifying because at any moment it feels like I could just lose it or snap. Or like you said, that I want to do these things and somehow I’ve become evil. When I’m really in the thick of it, I feel like I should be locked away and that gives me more anxiety.
@Catlove9 I know the OCD feels real. I used to see images of hurting my little sister and I would avoid her and it caused me huge depression and then one day I decided to fight my OCD and hang out with her anyway and we have a good relationship now. I am still working on not feeling shame or guilt or my ocd thoughts. I it is hard to just push through them and do what make you happy but thats what me and you have to go. Having pure ocd about hurting other shows that you are a really caring person because having intrusive thoughts makes you feel bad and scared were other people would just forget about it. with ocd you have just let the thoughts come In to your mind and let them go. the ocd will never take over you and you are a good person do not let ocd trick you. I am learning to let myself have the thoughts and realize they do not mean anything. It is hard and painful sitting here with your ocd thoughts but i what to be free from them so I am trying. I am going exposure therapy and I hate it but I am hoping I will be able to not feel fear from the thoughts anymore.
@Brooke cookie I totally agree. This is exactly what I’ve been trying to do as well. What’s been a challenge is how can I keep living normal when I feel so weird, like out of my body? It’s just so strange.
@Catlove9 I know , but we are going to overcome is fear disorder
@Brooke cookie Thank you! And last thing if you don’t mind. When I feel like I am making progress, it starts to feel like the OCD comes in harder and feeling more real. Do you experience that as well?
@Catlove9 Yeah, that’s pretty normal. When you feel like you’re making progress that you start to fight with your OCD again. it’s like you feel huge urge to prove yourself that the thoughts are not true and really all you’re doing is making it worse for yourself and causing anxiety and depression. I know it’s really hard not to, but we need to do is let the thoughts come in and then ignore them, but sometimes it’s really hard to do when especially when they’re really gruesome and they’re very disturbing. It’s hard just to except that you’re having the thoughts and it’s kind of painful, but if we do it correctly, then we’ll be able to move on from the intrusive thoughts. Stay strong girl you can do it.
@Brooke cookie Thank you so much. I really appreciate it.
This is likely derealization or depersonalization and I deal with it too. It makes every obsession 10x scarier and every compulsion feel more necessary to do. It’s just a neurological response to being under immense stress or anxiety but it’s really scary and I get it. It will pass though, I promise. The less afraid of it you become the more able you’ll be able to handle the feeling.
@LenaForever Thank you so much. You’re right though. It’s definitely 10x scarier.
I woke up today terrified cause I didn’t feel connected to my body. I looked in the mirror and thought I was watching someone else and that was scary. Feeling depersonalized fueled my intrusive thoughts. Like “what if I’m going crazy”, “what if I have shifted personalities” or “what if I’m bipolar.” The fear of turning crazy also fueled the intrusive thoughts of me acting mentally crazed or like a child. These intrusive thoughts also tainted me into believing that everything I did was something a mentally crazed person would do. Now I have become more hyper aware of how I feel when I do simple things. This also fueled my OCD subtypes like harm/ suicidal because I think that if I’m not connected to my body then I have no control or might do irrational things. This feeling of not being connected to yourself is really scary and I hate the feeling. How do I get connected with myself again.
Hey been going through some stuff the past few days and I just wanted to know some tips. I have been struggling with terrible intrusive thoughts about many different thing I feel like it’s something new every few weeks and I feel like a slave to my own brain. The new thing that has been happening that has been so mentally exhausting and has taken over me is constantly thinking that I’m not real and that I’m living in a dream and I just feel disconnected from reality. I can still socialize and stuff with people but it has been hard to focus and honestly just enjoy my day to day life because I’m constantly in my head
I do not even know how to explain what I am experiencing right now. It feels like I am not even myself and it feels like the thoughts are stronger than ever before and that they are more compelling? But I also do not feel like I’m inside my body so it’s making it extra scary. I’ve never experienced OCD like this before. I’ve been doing a lot better overall but now with this, I’m feeling doomed to just be what my thoughts say. It feels like I’ve lost my mind if I am being honest and every thing is triggering me. It does not feel like OCD this time. Any advice?
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