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- 1y
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
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- 1y
Oh definitely every day. I really struggle with peoples interpretation of me and so I feel like they hate me for no reason when in reality that’s my own mind thinking that. I’m also paranoid about what I say to people because I feel like I might share too much.therefore my fear of reputation comes in check. It’s hard but you know I just let things be.
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@ColdStoneCreameryAustin This is all day everyday for me haha
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- 1y
@ColdStoneCreameryAustin I really struggle with this same thing too ♥️
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
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- 1y
Yes
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- 1y
Me, during one of my false mem ocd episodes i became paranoid of everyone..and myself mainly tbh
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I would say so yes . I have this extreme fear where I am going to go schizophrenia or intrusive thoughts are not my own but hallucinations , etc. This extreme hypochondria sometimes has me hyper aware and my fear becomes irrational. Lets just say it inches into paranoia territory but it is driven by anxiety and inability to control my thoughts ( no one can but that is what us ocd sufferers hate) .
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@Mike0310 I suffer from this same extreme fear as well. Comforting to know I'm not the only one ♥️
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Yes. Mine is about health. I dont have health issues but every little twinge sends me into a panic.
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Paranoia and irrational fear can be labeled as two different things . In my mind I know I’m being irrational … it’s just that little seed of “ what if “ doubt that keeps the cycle going .
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- 23w
Paranoia… I need to know because I’m feeling very alone in this. I’ve never met someone with the level of paranoia that I have. I can logically explain things to myself and somehow my paranoia convinces me of another story. I’m constantly thinking exaggerated thoughts that there are so many scary possibilities. Am I alone in this or what? If so any suggestions on how to calm these thoughts
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- 21w
So I know I've talked about my fear of being hacked/watched without my knowledge and at the same time that same fear has also made me scared that i've said incriminating things or confessed to a crime I didn't commit out loud without realizing and that this person (who probably doesn't even exist) is going to use it against me in the future and ruin my life. To the point where I've covered all my device cameras. Yeah, I know. Incredibly outlandish. Anyways. The past few months it's just been my brain convincing me that my life is over or that it's going to end and not just end, but like I'm going to lose everyone that I love because of said "incriminating things" though I know I haven't done anything wrong. Of course, there's a part of me that realises that this is really unlikely because I'm not that important of a person for someone to lie in wait for decades and decide to ruin my life just because though I don't doubt that there are people like that out there (i really hope they're few and far between). However, there's another part of me that also really believes that this is all true. And sometimes I wonder if I'm going insane. Coupled with what I believe are false memories, the anxiety has been taxing every day. And I find it hard to sit with uncertainty because this worst case scenario terrifies me. I'm scared of being unloved and abandoned and also deathly afraid of being perceived as a bad person. And of course, also scared of being a bad person and my brain is convinced that I must be. Anyways. Who knows. Maybe. Maybe not. I wanted to share because I know that OCD or I guess any kind of mental illness (whatever it is I'm suffering from if it isn't OCD) likes to convince us that our fears are too niche and that this worry wouldn't be present if it wasn't real. OCD likes to use that as proof. I've learnt though that there are many people like me on this app, and even though it's still scary, it makes me feel less alone. It can be very tiring and honestly sometimes I ask myself how I'm still here even though it's been a few months and some people on here have experienced episodes like this for years or even decades. I keep hoping I'll wake up one day and it will be like this never happened. If you've taken the time to read this incredibly long waffle session of mine that's more like a drawn-pit diary entry, thank you. And if you feel comfortable with sharing, please do :)
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- Harm OCD
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- POCD
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- NOCD Therapy Alumni
- Older adults with OCD
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- 21w
Hey everyone, I just wanted to share something I’ve been struggling with, especially around making decisions. It’s really hard for me to feel confident in the choices I make, even when I know what the right thing is. I constantly find myself needing validation from others—whether it’s about something small or something really important. For example, at my job, I might know exactly what I’m doing and have done it right a bunch of times, but I still feel the need to double-check with someone or ask if it’s okay. It’s like this fear kicks in, and I start imagining worst-case scenarios—like what if I mess up and someone gets hurt, and then I get blamed or even end up in jail or prison. I know that sounds extreme, but these thoughts just come automatically, and they feel so real in the moment. This has been going on for maybe a year or two now. Even outside of work, the same thing happens. Like recently, I’ve been trying to figure out a gym schedule—my girlfriend wants to go with me, and I’m trying to plan the times and make it all work. But instead of just choosing what works best for me, I overthink it. I go back and forth in my head, and I ask other people what they think, even though deep down I know this is something I should be deciding for myself. It’s my life, but I still need that reassurance from others, and I don’t really know why. It’s exhausting to always doubt myself and to feel like one wrong choice could lead to something terrible. I’m trying to work through it, but I just wanted to put it out there and see if anyone else deals with this or has advice. Thanks for reading.
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